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Introduction to this Community

2020.11.25 21:20 deeps4D Introduction to this Community

I feel like the description is not enough for it, so this community is made for ppl to share a life story OR any other story that happened to them or someone who they know/knew , also no hate speeches against human races (example: Afro Americans) or other countries (example: all Germans are nazis and all Russians are drunk) please be polite as possible in any posts as I might have to take down some post that are way too rude...also please mark nsfw stuff, however nsfw stories are allowed but mark them so ppl are warned , I will NOT make anyone mod not for money nor for anything, even if we’re best friends irl , I will NOT make anyone mod, as I said, the reason is that I don’t trust anyone one the internet, especially Reddit, as they might start banning a lot of ppl, also if you can please don’t add any unnecessary information or links, if you think that making a comment (a hate speech) waiting sometime for it to be reported and change it, I’ll investigate any reports myself, if I’ll see a (edited) mark on a comment or anywhere, I’ll investigate more and finde clues that could lead to a ban, I am New community created here on Reddit, so some mistakes might happen that everyone with experience would instantly have noticed, if you finde any, please make sure to report them, I hope that some of you might post a interesting life story here, but please refrain from adding any specific information (names, birth dates, schools location, work places or city) it has many reasons why, some of them being the fear of being stalked, attacked or kidnapped, so do it for your own safety and for the safety of others around you ( family members or pets)
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2020.11.25 11:18 iamgodandashamed I drink a lot

I DRINK A LOT
I was born in 1968

At first it may be because of a failed relationship with a neighbour because she hooked
up with my brother. On that what sort of person does that, seriously. I wasn't ready for
that. I have decided not to swear on here. I will also not give away names or businesses.
They could possibly work it out but I won't name anyone. I just want to tell my story.
Later it became more of I just want to forget. And sleep. I can't kill myself or hurt
myself.

Some more reasons are that I was bullied throughout my life. My stepfather abused me. My
real dad was an alcoholic. My mother was controlling from my 20's. When I met the
neighbour I was 21. My Mother kicked both my brother and I out if we didn't stop seeing
the neighbour. But then again the neighbour was a waste of space. Around the late 2000's
my mum actually wrote me a letter to say stop seeing a mutual friend.

Some local kids decided to throw condoms with water inside them because I was friends
with a gay guy. I knew he was gay. So what. But local kids thought it was wrong. They
were homophobic. I could really get them into trouble now with that. But why bother. I
really just drink so I will die soon hopefully. I have lost all hope for humanity.
They threw them at my car.

Anyways, after my abuse I still didn't work out my sexuality until probably 1994/1995.
I am not sure.

My father was an alcoholic and lost the family business early on in my life. My mum and
dad separated when I was 5. I remember little about my early childhood. Mainly things at
school. One home incident really stuck out early. I have a scar above my eye because a
steel ladder hit it. 5 stitches.

I am pretty sure my dad use to abuse my mum and gave us all the belt at one point. My
oldest brother acted out a lot and left when he was 16 I think.

After my parents separated I would visit my mum on weekends and holidays and see my
stepfather and his kids. Then in 1975 my mum and stepfather moved to another state.
Starting in December, 1978, I visited my mum and stepfather in the holidays staying
about 5 weeks. This happened in 1978,79,80,81. In June 1982 my dad had the accident and
I stayed with my mum for about 3 months.

Another incident was a German Shepard ( named that way at the time) attacked me when I
was walking home and I got some bad scratches and a lifetime fear of dogs. Found out
later the dog attacked someone else and was shot dead.

I am one of three brothers. The oldest is now dead from a heart attack but was an
alcoholic. Around April he started drinking heavily and was told not to drink again.
The second oldest now has cancer but was born with brain damage. He was the
brother that the neighbour dumped me for him. ( again yea who does that?) Me. I am an
alcoholic and had been abused, bullied, cheated on, lost a son to a girl who cheated on
me. Yea so life is great hey.

I worked out my sexuality in 1994? Maybe. Well in 2000 I moved to a big city and started
driving a taxi. I left a winery because the lead hand wouldn't stop pushing his ideas on
me. One of my last conversations to him was that I would kill him and bury him. I think
I got the point across.

In 1978, I had a weird conversation with my stepsister. She asked me how I masturbated.
I didn't at that point. 2 years later after my mum and stepfather met another couple,
some of my abuse started. Yes it was sexual. I can't say I was forced. I wanted to do
it. I know that doesn't make it right. Its just what happened. With one of the sons of
the other family some things happened. We visited a nudist camp and nudist beach. The
other family had 6 children. They were a blended family. The oldest was about 16. The 2
stepsisters were a year older then me. The 2 stepbrother's were my age. There was a
younger girl. About 3 years younger. In 1982 I had extra relations with the other
brother and both stepsisters. We were all about 14 and 15 when this happened.

Actually in 1982, my father had a bad accident. He was going to buy a bottle of sherry
from a pub. Apparently he said he did a u-turn and hit a tree.
Actually he hit the tree at speed. He claimed someone ran him off the road.
He hit that tree with such force that the car, a ht panel van, had a rounded dent in the
front that it was amazing he was still alive. He had broken ribs, broken legs, and
troubles with eating and other things. He couldn't walk properly afterwards. When I saw
him in hospital I fainted. It was horrific. So I went to live with my mom. When he
recovered I went back to him. He continued to drink. We moved from one city to a town
then to a beach town. At this point I was experimenting with wearing women's clothes.
And in the beach town I continued with meeting men.

In 1984 my father died. He couldn't eat properly. And still drank. I started stealing
things from 1982 and ended up spending 3 months in a detention centre in 1983 ( I think)
then had probation until age 18. When I left the centre I again run away but my children
services officer found me. Anyways. I stopped acting out and lost my father.

In 1981, I was in a school in grade 8 in a high school that I knew nearly everyone in
the school. 1982 year 9 I did it then had to continue year 9 in another school where I
was bullied. 1983 I had to repeat year 9 but when I was sentenced to 3 months prison
after stealing bicycles, a boat and tried to steel a car and succeeded in stealing my
dad's car and drove to a big city, my dad took me to the police. In the police interviews
they first tried to pin a lot of stuff on me and i played along until i got sick of the
righteous cop who thought i was some sort of crime wave. I wanted to leave school. One
of the best things I made friends with the strongest guy in that place. Funny thing I
remember when a yacht won for a small country. And a song about still standing. I made
a coffee table too.

After my father's funeral me and the second oldest brother returned to my mother's and
stepfather's place. A caravan with all of my toys and coffee table, my brother's models
and telescopes and clothes was stolen as well as school photos. The caravan was recovered
but nothing else. Who steals photos and toys?

2 incidents that happened about 8 years apart in 2 different states really affected me
badly. The day after my birthday in 1986 I picked up my car from the pub, saw some
friends, then drove home when I got to my turn I saw some police cars and an ambulance
and a car that looked like it was sideswiped. Turns out the driver who was killed was a
local popular girl and was pushing her car after running out of fuel. The drunk driver
lost his licence and not much else. I reckon he should have been locked up for murder.
Another 8 years or so in another state a local kid hopped into his classic car and headed
into town but a big 4wd driven by another drunk driver was headed towards him and
collided and killed him. The drunk driver got a slap on the hand. He, too should have
been put in jail for murder. 2 more wastes of spaces.

I want to tell my story to everyone for free. I don't want money. I am a unemployed carer
for my brother who has cancer. If anyone wants to donate, donate to a worthy cause of
your choosing.

In year 7 the teacher's kid was in his class and because of that I got the cane for
several times. Of course I would like to find that kid now and whip him but he is another
waste of space.

The principal was also a waste of space and at one time kept us all on the parade ground
where someone fainted from the heat. À girl at the school who I liked lied that she
liked me but was joking. I did see her again in 1989 maybe. The third bf of the
neighbour punched me because I started stalking her, oh yes I did stalk her but again
who the hell hooks up with my brother after dumping me.

That couple later was arrested for drugs and later left the area. A local drunk who
abused me for the following and stalking ended up getting run over and died. I thought
at least one waste of space is now dead.

A stupid idiot died. Good.

There were some great experiences from my childhood. Like a cat that was blind that I
called pinky. She was a white albino cat. She was probably blind.
She was the greatest pet I ever had. She had a litter in my dad's doctor's case. She
once followed me all the way to the local shop ( about 4 kms) and back but I had to
carry her the last few hundred yards. But as all great things it ended with tragedy. I
came home from school and couldn't find her. My dad said he found her after being
attacked by dogs, her back broken he had to put her out of her misery. I have never
since had a pet like her. I don't know what happened to the dogs, but another
reason I hate dogs.

Put it this way. If I had a gun and a dog walked up to me I would pull the trigger.

On my stepfather. Yes he abused me and another kid. His reputation could be ruined by
this. His paintings are hanging in a council office and a park is named after him. If
anyone thinks they should be changed then I will get that done. If not I will leave it.
My stepfather passed away in 2005 from a heart attack because he still smoked.

My mother was controlling. I think in the early 2000's I told my mum and stepfather
about a girl I was interested in. That didn't work out. I never told them any other
relationship again. I think I picked younger girls because I missed out on girls from
21 to 33. I met many girls from 2001 to 2019. Most were younger. Only one was older.
But they were always of legal age. I could never be an abuser. And I couldn't be with
a married woman either.

Some of the first girls were Aussie, but I soon moved to Asian ladies, even marrying a
Vietnamese girl so she could stay in Australia. It failed though cause she was too busy
making money as a hooker. She claimed she was a stripper but she would bring guys back
to the house. In 2010 I changed to mostly African girls. My last lady friend was
Hispanic.

A "gf" in 2017 to 2018 who I had a baby with who was still born because of her not
telling me that her water had broken. She also cheated on me. I don't know when it
started. Soon after leaving a job where I was bullied and treated like rubbish a guy
came to the house and she hoped I wasn't home. After some distinctive noises I did
leave. She wanted to have a second baby but after finding out she cheated I didn't want
to have another kid with her. Soon after we left the house and I went back to living in
my car.

Living in my car. Pretty sure I did this from December 2009. Anytime I had work in big
city. At one point I joined a gym so I could shower. Other times I went to swimming
pools. Later I found a truck service station that wouldn't mind who used the showers
as long as you bought something.  Actually some great meals and people at the
place. I couldn't really afford it but at least I wasn't paying rent.

Yes I am an alcoholic. I won't stop. I want to die. I am ashamed. If anyone wants to
stop me guess you will have to lock me up. In the world we have a megalomaniac who
wants to rule the world. We have minorities who are continually dying in custody. If
even one person doesn't do anything then nothing changes.

Met a lovely person in 2011. Things ended in 2012 when I left a Job to be with her. Job
later folded. Owners were another waste of space. But I loved this person. I know it
wouldn't have worked though. I was too old. If I had met her in, oh that wouldn't work
out. Let's just say if I was 20 years younger it would have been better.

I can only think of one woman who was my perfect match but that didn't work out. Or if
we were born in different times.

Pretty sure that I will never find true love or another job.

Thanks to the federal government for forgetting unemployed people over 35. Thanks
for one state government for blaming another government for closing state boarders
then recording more infections. And thanks to a waste of space.

Pandemic. Look at the numbers. One country has the most. This country never took
proper precautions. Their leader is another waste of space.

My new catch phrase. Another waste of space.

Jobs I left. 2 times at the winery. Firstly one couple couldn't work fast enough. I
know I am slow but this couple was retarded. Second time was because of that leading
hand. Driving taxis I just moved depots when I moved houses. In 2002 I worked for a guy
to deliver junk mail. He was another waste of space. I lived with him and his gf ( being
a friend of mine) I woke up one night to his swearing, actually turning out to be a
reminder to my dad.

I worked for a depot in 2008-09, because the mechanic thought it was funny to trap me
in the window. Guess what another waste of space.

I worked for a depot where the owner was a waste of space.

A dealership I worked for where I was bullied and that. Well everyone there was a waste
of space.

Oh yea bonus material. A girl and a cop tried to frame me for hitting her car. She
actually reversed into me. Her and parents ran a shop with adult videos and drugs. The
cop was involved. Anyways later on I heard he tried to pick up another girl and got his
brains blown out.

In that place before we moved I could get anything I wanted. For instance I could buy
a gun.

So should I keep drinking.

I also ran a few businesses of my own. And even one on an app. Again probably making
less then $10 an hour. More wastes of spaces.

Talk about slave labour. Even in this country they still want people to pick fruit
and be paid for weight. Again another waste of space.

From October 2018, after I left that house I would work up to 8 days then drive up to
the little country town and buy and cook dinner for my brother. Sometime in September
2019 I noticed my brother had a lump on his neck. He said he had it for awhile. I got
him to see a doctor and when he did she referred him to a ct scan. Then he referred to
an oncologist. He was diagnosed with incurable cancer.

Mum passed away in 2013 from cancer.

I moved all my stuff up to the house to care for my brother at the end of September.
Cook and shop and stuff. Drive him to his appointments. We have visited another town
which is 100kms away 26 times. My brother has had all of his treatments and all is good
for now.

I will no longer risk my brothers life now. I won't be meeting anyone for years.

Now to this year. I have almost paid off a big debt. Started in 1994/1995 with a
bankcard. Up to $13000. Paid it off in 2012 after my ute got written off. But then
made it again after the move to be with that girl. This year I also got the remainder
of me super. ( a stupid idea. Why not have your money now). Anyways bought some gadgets,
paid off debt and may have a road bike end of this year.

My body isn't too good. I am overweight and have high blood pressure. I had also
started smoking when I was 15 then gave up when I was 23. So at a later date I may
develop cancer as well. Do I want to know. Part of me does and my doctor has suggested
I find out via an x-ray. Part of me does not. We all die. I have now reached out to
see a psychologist to talk to someone about my mental health and life. But I also want
to tell my life story to my family, some day.

I stopped drinking the other day will now take it one day at a time. I know I have to be
here for my brother. After that I don't know.

Now my sleeping pattern is all over the place. Wake up at midnight after a few hours
sleep. Fall asleep around midday sleep til 8 pm. Then it changes again. Last night fell
asleep around 9pm and woke up at 4am. I hope it is all good now. Was thinking of drinking
again to make my sleep right but didn't.

We did have a memorial for my stillborn son and I named him after my stepfather. I don't
know why but it was the first name that came to mind. He is buried at a cemetery that I
have never visited. As far as I know there is no plaque. I will reach out to the cemetery
to find out if he has one.

I heard some wonderful news on sunday. I am drinking now. I am celebrating. I am an alcoholic.
In 2012 I stopped drinking for a few years. A few weeks ago I stopped drinking for a bit but
started again. I don't care if it kills me. A ducking dunt is still not gone from the usa
He should be removed.

Finally some good news. The ducking dunt didn't get enough votes. Now if he doesn't leave he
can be removed by the secret service. You will be able to guess who he is. I think he is
insane. My country is trying to get the country responsible for the pandemic to face some
sort of charges. That country has told my country to really think about what they are doing.
Probably a good idea not to pick on a very large country in terms of population.

Some things did happen in 1979. with that other family we did visit a nudist beach. In 1980
the other family purchased my stepfather's mothers' house after her passing. Then after
that we would visit the nudist camps. I cant remember much else that happened in 1979. At
one point some time early on i saw both my stepfather and mother naked. Probably was in
1978 now that I think of it the night I saw them was the same night my stepsister asked me
about how I masturbate.

I have found out where my son is buried. I checked some records from a council and found
out where he is and asked the council if he had a plaque. He doesn't so I am visiting the
cemetery soon and will get a plaque for him as soon as I can. He was light skin but still
be a person of colour if he lived, with all of the rascism that is still abundant in my
country. White people just don't know what it is like to be treated differently because
of the colour of your skin.

I had deleted some of these paragraphs but decided to reuse them. I dont want the world
to end. I just want my world to end.

My mum sent me a letter sometime in 1996 about my father having been abusive to her.
That's why she left him. I ran away to a big city for a year.

Going to get a gew more gadgets like a video camera to film my story to put up on
youtube using narrator to tell it. This is my life now. drinking to sleep and trying to
forget my life. I could of course stop drinking but where's the fun in that. I dont want
to live forever. I think the world will end soon. We have many countries that want to
start world war 3. Luckily the reign of a dictator has been ended. But i dont put it
past his stupid chrildren trying the same thing. I think the best solution is to kill
him and his entire family. That would save the world. But then again there is 7.8
billion people on earth. So why not end human life.

Actually I think all of the human races' problems are because of politicians. Lets
get rid of politicans if you want the human race to survive another 1000 years.

We have many websites where people scam other people, troll other people and
bascially treat other people very terribly. Why cant we stop these people. How
about get rid of the internet. It is not working. Many other things throughout
history has killed many people. Cigarettes, Alcohol, Coal, Oil and more that
without the world would be better off. There has been many wars too. Many
terriost actions and gun related crimes. One big country has a right to bear
arms. But they continue to have gun deaths and many other crimes. Get rid of
the guns. GET RID OF THE GUNS.

Remember hearing about a guy who actually shot his dad because his dad use
to beat his mother.

One last thing a stupid country voted in a complete dunt. And now there are
rumours you will vote in his daughter. What is wrong with these people??/?
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In 1997 a certain popular person died in a car accident. I was making my
style of picnic tables when I heard. It was a sad day.

About 2005 I was driving to big city to do some job that was supervising
taxi ranks. I would finish at 5 am drive halfway home to the country then
sleep in my car. Wake up and drive home. Sleep a bit more then drive back
to big city.

I have sent an earlier update to my stepfather's kids and a friend. I don't
think I will see them again. I want to actually remove the paintings, the
gravestones and the sign at the park.

Actually I think a certain polictical party in a big country is to blame
because they didn't want a woman in office so they put up a candidate so
fundimentally stupid and he was voted in and now with rising deaths in
the country and now they can't get rid of him.

Tell you what let's get rid of violent games. I like violent movies but
they should be stopped too. A great movie trailer I saw was for Tom &
Jerry. Yes it is violent but it is a cartoon. Why should we watch movies
about killing then not think it in real life.

From 2000 I used a chat program on yahoo until about to 2006. Then
changed to one called tagged. where I met most of the girls. Met a
couple through facebook too.

Loved seeing movies at the drive-in or cinema. Saw a few great movies
up until 1978. The next movie I saw at a cinema was in 1989. Missed out
on a lot of great movies. Though now I have a great collection of dvd's,
CD's, records, tapes and videotapes. And Books.
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2020.11.25 02:51 No_Faithlessness3486 Doing this again

I can’t do the photo but let’s do this
The Number Game
But IMPROVED!!
Made by u/German-Spy
The Basics:
  1. Age
  2. Gender
  3. Height
  4. Weight 5. Where are you from
  5. Zodiac Sign
  6. First Name
  7. Last Name
  8. Middle Name 10. Birthday
  9. Main Language(s)
Hobbies/Favorite things:
  1. Favorite Color
  2. Favorite Food
  3. Favorite Activity
  4. Favorite Music genre 16. Favorite Artist
  5. Favorite Song
  6. Favorite Movie 19. Favorite Video Game (if any)
  7. Favorite TV show
  8. Do you play any sports 22. Last thing you did
Life/Experience
  1. Do you currently have a job
  2. Future Job/CareeAmbitions 25. Have you drank/smoked anything
  3. Have you done drugs
  4. Do you have any pets 28. Most Favorable Memory
  5. Most embarrassing moment 30. Dream Vacation
  6. How many Family members
  7. How many friends 33. Do you plan on going
college/university
Social Media:
  1. Do you use any other social media then Reddit
  2. Who do you follow
  3. Have you ever had an internet
argument
  1. Most used Social Media app 38. What's your username on each app
  2. Have you met any friends online 40. Do you follow any NSFW accounts/pages
  3. Last Person you DM'd/followed
  4. What was the last message you
sent 43. How many followers/friends on social media
  1. Amount of time you use social
media
to
Personal Belongings:
  1. Most expensive thing you own
  2. Do you own anything above
$1,000
  1. Most prized possession
  2. Do you own anything
embarrassing
  1. Weirdest thing you own
  2. Do you own anything popular
  3. Do you own anything considered
"rich"
  1. Do you own anything futuristic 53. Coolest thing you own
  2. Oldest thing you own
  3. What did you buy get recently
Appearance/Looks
  1. Hair Style 67. Hair Length
  2. Hair Color 69. Nice
  3. Body Style
  4. Ethnicity 72. What are you wearing
  5. Eye Color 74. Are you wearing makeup
  6. Type of Underwear you wear
  7. Favorite outfit 77. Facial/Body Hair
Relationships:
  1. Sexuality
  2. Relationship Status
  3. Who is your crush 81. Celebrity Crush
  4. Have you ever cheated on
someone
  1. Ideal Girlfriend/Boyfriend
  2. Idea of Perfect Date
  3. Have you asked someone out 86. What do you hope in a
relationship
  1. Are you interested in anyone 88. Do you real life online date
Sex & Sexuality:
  1. Are you a virgin 90. Have you ever seen anyone naked
  2. Do you have piercing/tattoos
  3. Have you ever had same-sex
expirence
  1. Have you ever sent a nude
  2. Have you ever sexted
  3. Have you ever kissed anyone 96. Am I attractive
  4. Have you ever slept together
  5. Do you want to have sex 99. Are you straight, bi, gay/lesbian,
pan, etc.
Sexual: (Welcome to Spicy
Town)
  1. Bra/Dick size
  2. Pubic Hair: Natural, trimmed, shaved, none
  3. Do you have any hair 103. (Guys Only) Areautircumcised
  4. How often you Masturbate 105. Have you ever watched porn
  5. Ideal Sexual/Physical attributes
  6. Favorite Sexual Fantasy 108. Turn Ons/Turn Offs
  7. Any Kinks
  8. Ideal Sexual Position 111. How do you masturbate
  9. Do you own a toy 113. Have you ever been caught
Masturbating 114. Have you ever walked in when
someone was having sex
  1. Biggest fears of Sex 116. Do you have any STDS
  2. How often are you horny
  3. Most embarrassing sexual story 119. Are you currently horny
  4. What do you expect in a sexual relationship
Academics/School
  1. Where do you go to school 122. What classes do you take
  2. What grade are you in 124. Most favorite teacher
  3. Least favorite teachers
  4. Highest Grade/Lowest Grade in
classes
  1. How long is your school day
  2. Did you do your homework
  3. Do you have any test, quizzes, or
exams coming up 130. Last bad grade
  1. Last good grade
Economic Status/Wealth:
132: Are you rich/poor
  1. Where do you stand in the wealth
class (lower class, middle class, upper
class) 134. How big is your house
  1. Take a picture of your house
  2. How much do your parents make 137. Do your parents struggle with debt
  3. Do you own a pool
(above-ground/below-ground) 139. Do you live in a gated neighborhood
  1. Do you have expensive stuff 141. How big is your room
  2. What kind of school do you go to
Misc:
  1. Send a selfie
  2. Do whatever I say (no saying no)
  3. DM me
  4. Ask whatever you want (I can't say
no)
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2020.11.24 15:30 tecraspace TecraCoin blockchain upgraded to Bitcoin Core 14

TecraCoin blockchain upgraded to Bitcoin Core 14

https://preview.redd.it/zxb4f7bg77161.jpg?width=2579&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=0ec1fc29055b64cb32cc959abe46b539484f839b

Bitcoin core 14

The main point of this article - what exactly is bitcoin core 14 and what does the upgrade mean for TecraCoin?
Upgrading from Core 0.12.0 to Bitcoin Core 0.14.0 will bring major improvements to the functioning of our blockchain. The most notable change of the core update is performance enhancement and ability to implement Delegated Proof of Work (dPoW).
More specifically, syncing and initial block download will take up much less time. The new Bitcoin Core 0.14.0 client will allow the process of synchronization with the blockchain to be sped up by as much as 40-48% compared to the previous version. Improved Initial Block Download (IBD) performance means that a full node that has been started for the first time can now validate all blocks up until the present much quicker than before. The increase in IBD speed is possible thanks to two improvements introduced in the new core version: assumed valid blocks and memory-sharing between mempool and UTXO DB cache.
In Bitcoin Core 0.14.0, unused mempool memory is shared with the UTXO database cache, which increases the number of Unspent Transaction Outputs (UTXOs) that can be cached in fast memory rather than needing to be stored and retrieved from a much slower disk drive.
Next, faster new block validation and relay is great news especially for miners and other users who need to receive and process new blocks as fast as possible. The BIP152 CompactBlocks implementation will now relay some blocks before they’ve been fully validated, allowing those blocks to propagate across the peer-to-peer (P2P) network much quicker than in previous versions. The P2P network code has also generally been refactored to allow multiple actions to happen simultaneously (concurrency) as well as to increase throughput, eliminating many potential delays in processing new blocks. Finally, unconfirmed transactions in each node’s mempool can now be saved to and restored from disk when the node is restarted. Network operations are no longer bottlenecked by validation and, as a result, block fetching is several times faster than previous releases in many cases.
The new version sees an improved signature cache. The new signature cache will use cuckoo cache, which will allow more signatures to be cached and faster lookups. As signature verification is typically the most computationally-expensive part of processing a new block, using the signature cache significantly improves the speed at which new blocks can be processed by nodes that have a longer online presence.
However, one of the most important changes of the upgrade is that Tecra at last will be able to implement dPoW. That means we will be able to facilitate an integration with Komodo, a pioneer of multi-chain architecture in the blockchain space.
https://www.newsbtc.com/news/bitcoin/bitcoin-core-0-14-0-speeds-blockchain-syncing-48/

What is Bitcoin Core?

An integral part of the Bitcoin network is a software called Bitcoin Core. This program is designed to validate and verify all blocks in the blockchain and all transactions in those blocks. This program is also used as secure wallets.
Using this program helps the Bitcoin blockchain stay completely decentralized and distinguish this blockchain from other bitcoin blockchain blocks (Hardforks); For example, Bitcoin Cash and Bitcoin Gold are two hard-forked branches (They should die because of low PoW hashrate, but because there is Bitmain that uses BCH exclusively for buying miners... it is still alive -with under 2% of BTC hash rate) of Bitcoin. It should be noted that not all Bitcoin network nodes use this program.
Code of Bitcoin Core is used in many other blockchains, and it is updated, forked, and merged on a daily basis. Many of these forks have networks very similar to Bitcoin, but may differ from Bitcoin in some parameters, which is why these currencies are not actually Bitcoin!
The main Bitcoin network was launched in 2009 by Satoshi Nakamoto. Therefore, the Bitcoin Core program helps to distinguish the original blockchain blocks from other blocks. There was one Bitcoin network, Code was forked i.e. for Namecoin (to use decentralized DNS) and Litecoin (for faster transactions and different mining) and so on. It is more than thousand of different coins based on Bitcoin code, but only a handful forks based on Bitcoin blockchain (BCH was the first one, BSV forked from BCH, BTG, and other *coins directly from BTC)

History of Bitcoin Core

The program was originally written under the name Bitcoin-Qt by Wladimir van der Laan referring to the source code that Satoshi Nakamoto published on the Internet. In the first versions, it needed bitcoin daemon (bitcoind) running separately, later on, it was incorporated into one program (daemon + GUI).
This program can be used to create transactions and other payment services. The source code of this program is available on the GitHub site.
Features One of the main features of the Bitcoin Core is the high security of this software. Bitcoin Core is a digital wallet software used in the Bitcoin blockchain network, and if you use this digital wallet, your bitcoins will be stored directly on the blockchain. In fact, this makes the bitcoin core have a high level of security.
  • The most important reason to use this program is because it is the most popular program for running Full Node. (Allows full nodes to follow Bitcoin network rules)
  • The RPC (Remote Procedure Call) interface allows developers to easily communicate with the application.
  • It has a user-friendly interface that also allows ordinary users to create and validate transactions.
  • Compatibility with various operating systems such as Linux, Windows, and Mac.
  • Perform transactions very quickly
  • Requires confirmation from the user before creating any transaction.
  • Low transaction costs
  • Has a list of transactions with the status icon in Real-Time (live)
  • Has a progress bar confirming the download of the blockchain
  • Has different languages such as German, Chinese, etc.
  • Use different units to split bitcoins such as Milli, Micro
Bitcoin Core is a great application and has become one of the most important components of the Bitcoin blockchain.

https://preview.redd.it/8kft42kk77161.jpg?width=1466&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=5e96a74a98648a73a3e000dda7dc88a52a44f760

Strengths and weaknesses of Bitcoin Core

Pros
  • This is open-source software; This means that any user can contribute to the development of the software and even make changes by analyzing it.
  • This software is the safest and best Node available for Bitcoin. With Bitcoin Core, you can stay in touch with blockchain and keep up to date with all the important and new developments.
  • There is good support for this software. The behind-the-scenes team of this software is always working on it and you can talk to their experts 24 hours a day and solve your problems with Bitcoin Core.
Cons
  • Bitcoin Core is a full node, so it downloads the entire blockchain network completely. The data in the blockchain is so large that you need 330GB of free space on your device, which is increasing day by day.
  • Long Sync: Keep in mind that Bitcoin Core is connected to the entire bitcoin network, so it takes even a week (on magnetic HDD) to synchronize with the massive bitcoin network. After this period, you will be able to use it. Using a fast SSD can cut this time to less than a day.
  • If you not use if frequently (ie in daily/weekly basis) it take some time (minutes-hours) to sync blockchain to current state
We have given all these explanations about Bitcoin Core to find out the importance of this software and why Tecra is using it in its own code. Let’s take a more comprehensive look into what Tecra has in store.
Simply explained, TecraCoin code is forked from Zcoin code, which is forked from Dash, and Dash is forked from Bitcoin. So, we use the Bitcoin Core CODE.
TecraCoin is a free open source peer-to-peer electronic cash system that is completely decentralized, without the need for a central server or trusted parties. Users hold the crypto keys to their own money and transact directly with each other, with the help of a P2P network to check for double-spending.
TecraCoin Core is the original TecraCoin client. It builds the backbone of the network. However, it downloads and stores the entire history of TecraCoin transactions (which is currently about 12GBs); depending on the speed of your computer and network connection, the synchronization process can take anywhere from a hour s to a day (rarely more).
The following are some helpful notes on how to run TecraCoin on your native platform.
Download binary from github: https://github.com/tecracoin/tecracoin/releases
  • For MacOS (installer) tecracoin-1.7.0-osx-*.dmg
  • For Linux (gzipped binaries) tecracoin-1.7.0-x86_64-linux-gnu.tar.gz
  • For Windows (installer) tecracoin-1.7.0-win64-setup-*.exe
  • For Windows (zipped binaries) tecracoin-1.7.0-win64.zip
  • For Linux Masternode (console only) tnode.tar.gz
If you are already familiar with Docker, then running TecraCoin with Docker might be an easier method for you. To run TecraCoin using this method, first install Docker. After this, you may continue with the following instructions.
Please note that we currently don‘t support the GUI when running with Docker. Therefore, you can only use RPC (via HTTP or the tecracoin-cli utility) to interact with TecraCoin via this method.
  1. Pull our latest official Docker image: - docker pull tecracoin/tecranode-mainnet
  2. Start TecraCoin daemon: - docker run --detach --name tecracoind tecracoin/tecranode-mainnet
  3. View current block count (this might take a while since the daemon needs to find other nodes and download blocks first): - docker exec tecracoind tecracoin-cli getblockcount
  4. View connected nodes: - docker exec tecracoind tecracoin-cli getpeerinfo
  5. Stop daemon: - docker stop tecracoind
  6. Backup wallet: - docker cp tecracoind:/home/tecracoind/.tecracoin/wallet.dat .
  7. Start daemon again: - docker start tecracoind
Dependencies
  1. Update packages - sudo apt-get update
  2. Install required packages - sudo apt-get install build-essential libtool autotools-dev automake pkg-config - libssl-dev libevent-dev bsdmainutils libboost-all-dev libgmp-dev cmake
  3. Install Berkeley DB 4.8 - sudo apt-get install software-properties-common - sudo add-apt-repository ppa:bitcoin/bitcoin - sudo apt-get update - sudo apt-get install libdb4.8-dev libdb4.8++-dev
  4. Install QT 5 - sudo apt-get install libminiupnpc-dev libzmq3-dev - sudo apt-get install libqt5gui5 libqt5core5a libqt5dbus5 qttools5-dev qttools5-dev-tools libprotobuf-dev protobuf-compiler libqrencode-dev
Build
  1. Clone the source: - git clone https://github.com/tecracoin/tecracoin
  2. Build TecraCoin-core: - Configure and build the headless TecraCoin binaries as well as the GUI (if Qt is found). You can disable the GUI build by passing --without-gui to configure. ./autogen.sh ./configure
make
  1. To build and run all the unit tests: - ./autogen.sh - ./configure --enable-tests --enable-gui --enable-elysium - cd src
We kindly ask you update TecraCoin Core to the 1.7 version! You can do so through this link: https://github.com/tecracoin/tecracoin/releases/tag/v1.7.0.3
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2020.11.20 20:48 gangsta-chicken definetily not copied and pasted from somebody else

made by u/German-Spy
the numbers game

The Basics:
  1. Age
  2. Gender
  3. Height
  4. Weight
  5. Where are you from
  6. Zodiac Sign
  7. First Name
  8. Last Name
  9. Middle Name 10. Birthday
  10. Main Language(s)
Hobbies/Favorite things:
  1. Favorite Color
  2. Favorite Food
  3. Favorite Activity
  4. Favorite Music genre 16. Favorite Artist
  5. Favorite Song
  6. Favorite Movie 19. Favorite Video Game (if any)
  7. Favorite TV show
  8. Do you play any sports 22. Last thing you did
Life/Experience
  1. Do you currently have a job
  2. Future Job/CareeAmbitions
    1. Have you drank/smoked anything
  3. Have you done drugs
  4. Do you have any pets 28. Most Favorable Memory
  5. Most embarrassing moment 30. Dream Vacation
  6. How many Family members
  7. How many friends 33. Do you plan on going
college/university
Social Media:
  1. Do you use any other social media then Reddit
  2. Who do you follow
  3. Have you ever had an internet
argument
  1. Most used Social Media app 38. What's your username on each app
  2. Have you met any friends online 40. Do you follow any NSFW accounts/pages
  3. Last Person you DM'd/followed
  4. What was the last message you
sent 43. How many followers/friends on social media
  1. Amount of time you use social
media
to
Personal Belongings:
  1. Most expensive thing you own
  2. Do you own anything above
$1,000
  1. Most prized possession
  2. Do you own anything
embarrassing
  1. Weirdest thing you own
  2. Do you own anything popular
  3. Do you own anything considered
"rich"
  1. Do you own anything futuristic 53. Coolest thing you own
  2. Oldest thing you own
  3. What did you buy get recently
Appearance/Looks
  1. Hair Style
  2. Hair Length
  3. Hair Color
  4. Nice
  5. Body Style
  6. Ethnicity 72. What are you wearing
  7. Eye Color 74. Are you wearing makeup
  8. Type of Underwear you wear
  9. Favorite outfit 77. Facial/Body Hair
Relationships:
  1. Sexuality
  2. Relationship Status
  3. Who is your crush 81. Celebrity Crush
  4. Have you ever cheated on
someone
  1. Ideal Girlfriend/Boyfriend
  2. Idea of Perfect Date
  3. Have you asked someone out 86. What do you hope in a
relationship
  1. Are you interested in anyone 88. Do you real life online date
Sex & Sexuality:
  1. Are you a virgin 90. Have you ever seen anyone naked
  2. Do you have piercing/tattoos
  3. Have you ever had same-sex
expirence
  1. Have you ever sent a nude
  2. Have you ever sexted
  3. Have you ever kissed anyone 96. Am I attractive
  4. Have you ever slept together
  5. Do you want to have sex 99. Are you straight, bi, gay/lesbian,
pan, etc.
Sexual: (Welcome to Spicy
Town)
  1. Bra/Dick size
  2. Pubic Hair: Natural, trimmed, shaved, none
  3. Do you have any hair 103. (Guys Only) Areautircumcised
  4. How often you Masturbate 105. Have you ever watched porn
  5. Ideal Sexual/Physical attributes
  6. Favorite Sexual Fantasy
  7. Turn Ons/Turn Offs
  8. Any Kinks
  9. Ideal Sexual Position 111. How do you masturbate
  10. Do you own a toy 113. Have you ever been caught
Masturbating 114. Have you ever walked in when
someone was having sex
  1. Biggest fears of Sex 116. Do you have any STDS
  2. How often are you horny
  3. Most embarrassing sexual story 119. Are you currently horny
  4. What do you expect in a sexual relationship
Academics/School
  1. Where do you go to school
  2. What classes do you take
  3. What grade are you in
  4. Most favorite teacher
  5. Least favorite teachers
  6. Highest Grade/Lowest Grade in
classes
  1. How long is your school day
  2. Did you do your homework
  3. Do you have any test, quizzes, or
exams coming up 130. Last bad grade
  1. Last good grade
Economic Status/Wealth:
132: Are you rich/poor
  1. Where do you stand in the wealth
class (lower class, middle class, upper
class)
  1. How big is your house
  2. Take a picture of your house
  3. How much do your parents make
  4. Do your parents struggle with debt
  5. Do you own a pool
(above-ground/below-ground)
  1. Do you live in a gated neighborhood
  2. Do you have expensive stuff
  3. How big is your room
  4. What kind of school do you go to
Misc:
  1. Send a selfie
  2. Do whatever I say (no saying no)
  3. DM me
  4. Ask whatever you want (I can't say
no)
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2020.11.20 20:24 No_Faithlessness3486 I can’t do the photo but let’s do this

The Number Game
But IMPROVED!!
Made by u/German-Spy
The Basics:
  1. Age
  2. Gender
  3. Height
  4. Weight 5. Where are you from
  5. Zodiac Sign
  6. First Name
  7. Last Name
  8. Middle Name 10. Birthday
  9. Main Language(s)
Hobbies/Favorite things:
  1. Favorite Color
  2. Favorite Food
  3. Favorite Activity
  4. Favorite Music genre 16. Favorite Artist
  5. Favorite Song
  6. Favorite Movie 19. Favorite Video Game (if any)
  7. Favorite TV show
  8. Do you play any sports 22. Last thing you did
Life/Experience
  1. Do you currently have a job
  2. Future Job/CareeAmbitions 25. Have you drank/smoked anything
  3. Have you done drugs
  4. Do you have any pets 28. Most Favorable Memory
  5. Most embarrassing moment 30. Dream Vacation
  6. How many Family members
  7. How many friends 33. Do you plan on going
college/university
Social Media:
  1. Do you use any other social media then Reddit
  2. Who do you follow
  3. Have you ever had an internet
argument
  1. Most used Social Media app 38. What's your username on each app
  2. Have you met any friends online 40. Do you follow any NSFW accounts/pages
  3. Last Person you DM'd/followed
  4. What was the last message you
sent 43. How many followers/friends on social media
  1. Amount of time you use social
media
to
Personal Belongings:
  1. Most expensive thing you own
  2. Do you own anything above
$1,000
  1. Most prized possession
  2. Do you own anything
embarrassing
  1. Weirdest thing you own
  2. Do you own anything popular
  3. Do you own anything considered
"rich"
  1. Do you own anything futuristic 53. Coolest thing you own
  2. Oldest thing you own
  3. What did you buy get recently
Appearance/Looks
  1. Hair Style 67. Hair Length
  2. Hair Color 69. Nice
  3. Body Style
  4. Ethnicity 72. What are you wearing
  5. Eye Color 74. Are you wearing makeup
  6. Type of Underwear you wear
  7. Favorite outfit 77. Facial/Body Hair
Relationships:
  1. Sexuality
  2. Relationship Status
  3. Who is your crush 81. Celebrity Crush
  4. Have you ever cheated on
someone
  1. Ideal Girlfriend/Boyfriend
  2. Idea of Perfect Date
  3. Have you asked someone out 86. What do you hope in a
relationship
  1. Are you interested in anyone 88. Do you real life online date
Sex & Sexuality:
  1. Are you a virgin 90. Have you ever seen anyone naked
  2. Do you have piercing/tattoos
  3. Have you ever had same-sex
expirence
  1. Have you ever sent a nude
  2. Have you ever sexted
  3. Have you ever kissed anyone 96. Am I attractive
  4. Have you ever slept together
  5. Do you want to have sex 99. Are you straight, bi, gay/lesbian,
pan, etc.
Sexual: (Welcome to Spicy
Town)
  1. Bra/Dick size
  2. Pubic Hair: Natural, trimmed, shaved, none
  3. Do you have any hair 103. (Guys Only) Areautircumcised
  4. How often you Masturbate 105. Have you ever watched porn
  5. Ideal Sexual/Physical attributes
  6. Favorite Sexual Fantasy 108. Turn Ons/Turn Offs
  7. Any Kinks
  8. Ideal Sexual Position 111. How do you masturbate
  9. Do you own a toy 113. Have you ever been caught
Masturbating 114. Have you ever walked in when
someone was having sex
  1. Biggest fears of Sex 116. Do you have any STDS
  2. How often are you horny
  3. Most embarrassing sexual story 119. Are you currently horny
  4. What do you expect in a sexual relationship
Academics/School
  1. Where do you go to school 122. What classes do you take
  2. What grade are you in 124. Most favorite teacher
  3. Least favorite teachers
  4. Highest Grade/Lowest Grade in
classes
  1. How long is your school day
  2. Did you do your homework
  3. Do you have any test, quizzes, or
exams coming up 130. Last bad grade
  1. Last good grade
Economic Status/Wealth:
132: Are you rich/poor
  1. Where do you stand in the wealth
class (lower class, middle class, upper
class) 134. How big is your house
  1. Take a picture of your house
  2. How much do your parents make 137. Do your parents struggle with debt
  3. Do you own a pool
(above-ground/below-ground) 139. Do you live in a gated neighborhood
  1. Do you have expensive stuff 141. How big is your room
  2. What kind of school do you go to
Misc:
  1. Send a selfie
  2. Do whatever I say (no saying no)
  3. DM me
  4. Ask whatever you want (I can't say
no)
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2020.11.20 11:30 tecraspace TecraCoin blockchain upgraded to Bitcoin Core 14

TecraCoin blockchain upgraded to Bitcoin Core 14
https://preview.redd.it/4iwi9nk0hd061.jpg?width=1466&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=7c36a9cd89a6c21539ef132d208820e7a79a20cc

Bitcoin core 14

The main point of this article - what exactly is bitcoin core 14 and what does the upgrade mean for TecraCoin?
Upgrading from Core 0.12.0 to Bitcoin Core 0.14.0 will bring major improvements to the functioning of our blockchain. The most notable change of the core update is performance enhancement and ability to implement Delegated Proof of Work (dPoW).
More specifically, syncing and initial block download will take up much less time. The new Bitcoin Core 0.14.0 client will allow the process of synchronization with the blockchain to be sped up by as much as 40-48% compared to the previous version. Improved Initial Block Download (IBD) performance means that a full node that has been started for the first time can now validate all blocks up until the present much quicker than before. The increase in IBD speed is possible thanks to two improvements introduced in the new core version: assumed valid blocks and memory-sharing between mempool and UTXO DB cache.
In Bitcoin Core 0.14.0, unused mempool memory is shared with the UTXO database cache, which increases the number of Unspent Transaction Outputs (UTXOs) that can be cached in fast memory rather than needing to be stored and retrieved from a much slower disk drive.
Next, faster new block validation and relay is great news especially for miners and other users who need to receive and process new blocks as fast as possible. The BIP152 CompactBlocks implementation will now relay some blocks before they’ve been fully validated, allowing those blocks to propagate across the peer-to-peer (P2P) network much quicker than in previous versions. The P2P network code has also generally been refactored to allow multiple actions to happen simultaneously (concurrency) as well as to increase throughput, eliminating many potential delays in processing new blocks. Finally, unconfirmed transactions in each node’s mempool can now be saved to and restored from disk when the node is restarted. Network operations are no longer bottlenecked by validation and, as a result, block fetching is several times faster than previous releases in many cases.
The new version sees an improved signature cache. The new signature cache will use cuckoo cache, which will allow more signatures to be cached and faster lookups. As signature verification is typically the most computationally-expensive part of processing a new block, using the signature cache significantly improves the speed at which new blocks can be processed by nodes that have a longer online presence.
However, one of the most important changes of the upgrade is that Tecra at last will be able to implement dPoW. That means we will be able to facilitate an integration with Komodo, a pioneer of multi-chain architecture in the blockchain space.
https://www.newsbtc.com/news/bitcoin/bitcoin-core-0-14-0-speeds-blockchain-syncing-48/

What is Bitcoin Core?

An integral part of the Bitcoin network is a software called Bitcoin Core. This program is designed to validate and verify all blocks in the blockchain and all transactions in those blocks. This program is also used as secure wallets.
Using this program helps the Bitcoin blockchain stay completely decentralized and distinguish this blockchain from other bitcoin blockchain blocks (Hardforks); For example, Bitcoin Cash and Bitcoin Gold are two hard-forked branches (They should die because of low PoW hashrate, but because there is Bitmain that uses BCH exclusively for buying miners... it is still alive -with under 2% of BTC hash rate) of Bitcoin. It should be noted that not all Bitcoin network nodes use this program.
Code of Bitcoin Core is used in many other blockchains, and it is updated, forked, and merged on a daily basis. Many of these forks have networks very similar to Bitcoin, but may differ from Bitcoin in some parameters, which is why these currencies are not actually Bitcoin!
The main Bitcoin network was launched in 2009 by Satoshi Nakamoto. Therefore, the Bitcoin Core program helps to distinguish the original blockchain blocks from other blocks. There was one Bitcoin network, Code was forked i.e. for Namecoin (to use decentralized DNS) and Litecoin (for faster transactions and different mining) and so on. It is more than thousand of different coins based on Bitcoin code, but only a handful forks based on Bitcoin blockchain (BCH was the first one, BSV forked from BCH, BTG, and other *coins directly from BTC)

History of Bitcoin Core

The program was originally written under the name Bitcoin-Qt by Wladimir van der Laan referring to the source code that Satoshi Nakamoto published on the Internet. In the first versions, it needed bitcoin daemon (bitcoind) running separately, later on, it was incorporated into one program (daemon + GUI).
This program can be used to create transactions and other payment services. The source code of this program is available on the GitHub site.
Features One of the main features of the Bitcoin Core is the high security of this software. Bitcoin Core is a digital wallet software used in the Bitcoin blockchain network, and if you use this digital wallet, your bitcoins will be stored directly on the blockchain. In fact, this makes the bitcoin core have a high level of security.
  • The most important reason to use this program is because it is the most popular program for running Full Node. (Allows full nodes to follow Bitcoin network rules)
  • The RPC (Remote Procedure Call) interface allows developers to easily communicate with the application.
  • It has a user-friendly interface that also allows ordinary users to create and validate transactions.
  • Compatibility with various operating systems such as Linux, Windows, and Mac.
  • Perform transactions very quickly
  • Requires confirmation from the user before creating any transaction.
  • Low transaction costs
  • Has a list of transactions with the status icon in Real-Time (live)
  • Has a progress bar confirming the download of the blockchain
  • Has different languages such as German, Chinese, etc.
  • Use different units to split bitcoins such as Milli, Micro
Bitcoin Core is a great application and has become one of the most important components of the Bitcoin blockchain.

Strengths and weaknesses of Bitcoin Core

Pros
  • This is open-source software; This means that any user can contribute to the development of the software and even make changes by analyzing it.
  • This software is the safest and best Node available for Bitcoin. With Bitcoin Core, you can stay in touch with blockchain and keep up to date with all the important and new developments.
  • There is good support for this software. The behind-the-scenes team of this software is always working on it and you can talk to their experts 24 hours a day and solve your problems with Bitcoin Core.
Cons
  • Bitcoin Core is a full node, so it downloads the entire blockchain network completely. The data in the blockchain is so large that you need 330GB of free space on your device, which is increasing day by day.
  • Long Sync: Keep in mind that Bitcoin Core is connected to the entire bitcoin network, so it takes even a week (on magnetic HDD) to synchronize with the massive bitcoin network. After this period, you will be able to use it. Using a fast SSD can cut this time to less than a day.
  • If you not use if frequently (ie in daily/weekly basis) it take some time (minutes-hours) to sync blockchain to current state
We have given all these explanations about Bitcoin Core to find out the importance of this software and why Tecra is using it in its own code. Let’s take a more comprehensive look into what Tecra has in store.
Simply explained, TecraCoin code is forked from Zcoin code, which is forked from Dash, and Dash is forked from Bitcoin. So, we use the Bitcoin Core CODE.
TecraCoin is a free open source peer-to-peer electronic cash system that is completely decentralized, without the need for a central server or trusted parties. Users hold the crypto keys to their own money and transact directly with each other, with the help of a P2P network to check for double-spending.
TecraCoin Core is the original TecraCoin client. It builds the backbone of the network. However, it downloads and stores the entire history of TecraCoin transactions (which is currently about 12GBs); depending on the speed of your computer and network connection, the synchronization process can take anywhere from a hour s to a day (rarely more).
The following are some helpful notes on how to run TecraCoin on your native platform.
Download binary from github: https://github.com/tecracoin/tecracoin/releases
  • For MacOS (installer) tecracoin-1.7.0-osx-*.dmg
  • For Linux (gzipped binaries) tecracoin-1.7.0-x86_64-linux-gnu.tar.gz
  • For Windows (installer) tecracoin-1.7.0-win64-setup-*.exe
  • For Windows (zipped binaries) tecracoin-1.7.0-win64.zip
  • For Linux Masternode (console only) tnode.tar.gz
If you are already familiar with Docker, then running TecraCoin with Docker might be an easier method for you. To run TecraCoin using this method, first install Docker. After this, you may continue with the following instructions.
Please note that we currently don‘t support the GUI when running with Docker. Therefore, you can only use RPC (via HTTP or the tecracoin-cli utility) to interact with TecraCoin via this method.
  1. Pull our latest official Docker image: - docker pull tecracoin/tecranode-mainnet
  2. Start TecraCoin daemon: - docker run --detach --name tecracoind tecracoin/tecranode-mainnet
  3. View current block count (this might take a while since the daemon needs to find other nodes and download blocks first): - docker exec tecracoind tecracoin-cli getblockcount
  4. View connected nodes: - docker exec tecracoind tecracoin-cli getpeerinfo
  5. Stop daemon: - docker stop tecracoind
  6. Backup wallet: - docker cp tecracoind:/home/tecracoind/.tecracoin/wallet.dat .
  7. Start daemon again: - docker start tecracoind
Dependencies
  1. Update packages - sudo apt-get update
  2. Install required packages - sudo apt-get install build-essential libtool autotools-dev automake pkg-config - libssl-dev libevent-dev bsdmainutils libboost-all-dev libgmp-dev cmake
  3. Install Berkeley DB 4.8 - sudo apt-get install software-properties-common - sudo add-apt-repository ppa:bitcoin/bitcoin - sudo apt-get update - sudo apt-get install libdb4.8-dev libdb4.8++-dev
  4. Install QT 5 - sudo apt-get install libminiupnpc-dev libzmq3-dev - sudo apt-get install libqt5gui5 libqt5core5a libqt5dbus5 qttools5-dev qttools5-dev-tools libprotobuf-dev protobuf-compiler libqrencode-dev
Build
  1. Clone the source: - git clone https://github.com/tecracoin/tecracoin
  2. Build TecraCoin-core: - Configure and build the headless TecraCoin binaries as well as the GUI (if Qt is found). You can disable the GUI build by passing --without-gui to configure. ./autogen.sh ./configure
make
  1. To build and run all the unit tests: - ./autogen.sh - ./configure --enable-tests --enable-gui --enable-elysium - cd src
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2020.11.19 23:49 freespinsmobile Stelario Casino - free spins, no deposit bonus, promotion

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2020.11.18 06:01 RositaJones1988 🔥♟🚨A 100% true account of the depths my psychosis has taken me (long but worth it)🚨♟🔥

Trigger warning ⚠️ Rape/stalking/drug use ⚠️
This is going to be really long bear with me. Need to get this off my chest.
In 2016 I sent my daughter to Washington for a summer long vacation and started partying with meth. She never came home due to my new addiction.
I met a guy we will call Z in June through a friend I was partying with. I completely fell in love with him and felt this electricity and deep connection to him I’ve never felt before. The sex was out of this world and I literately thought he was my “twin flame”.
I suffer from bipolar 1 btw which from prolonged meth use I started hallucinating/ delusions and was in a full blown psychosis for over 9 months. I became homeless in October 2016.
It was constant head games but I was obsessed with him and he would ghost me for a period of time whenever I displeased him. I lived in a state of hyper vigilance because I was convinced he was stalking me.
I became convinced he was a real psychopath and made me his new play thing. He told me he knew people everywhere and basically left me a letter stating I was now one of his “pieces” because life is a chess game and other random tweeker nonsense.
During the periods of silence between us things started happening and I was convinced it was him but honestly Some of it was hallucinations and a lot was reality. things that started happening when I was still in my apartment (lived alone no visitors):
-Woke up morning after my bday to studded dog collar on my nightstand. Door locked no visitors the days before.
-King chess piece (the one he used when we played) missing from chess board that was set in my living room for display. My king knocked on to its side in “check mate”. (Chess players may know what I mean)
-3 x’s written on the fence outside in chalk that was next to my front door on second floor.
All examples above were separate instances.
After becoming homeless:
I’d sleep under a bridge in a canal next to a golf course you had to climb down into from the road above to access. There was also a sewage tunnel off to the side I’d go in (completely dry in AZ). This guy I met who wanted to date me showed me that place. We were squatting together for 2 weeks. He also got me a junker bicycle so we could be more mobile.
He became increasingly paranoid he was being followed as all 4 of his hiding places throughout the near by desert were raided and no one knew his hiding places but him. (This is tweaked junk not valuables)
He disappeared for 2 days so I left the wash and when I came back the next morning he said a stranger approached him with $100 of meth to buy my bike.
He then moved us to a near by wash next to a park because people “knew” about that place now. Later that night he accused me of stealing his flashlight and beat me up and stole all my belongings. I screamed and ran through the park to the road.
Some random guy riding by on a bike approaches me moments later after escaping. Starts asking what my name is I go by “Rose”but I tell him “quel” and he says his “gf rose” is an ugly stupid bitch and if I see her to stay away because no one likes her and she should just kill herself. He then hands me $10 in meth and says I look like I had a hard day.
-I get on the bus the next day and some random dude gets on the bus comes up to me and says it’s not safe here. I try to talk more and he gives me a look of warning. I stay on till he gets off and follow him and he’s running across the street to another bus stop and I ask what he meant. He turns away and digs in his bag but says he’s not supposed to talk to me, gives me a black bandanna and says not to follow him. To stay here because“it’s safe on the square.” (The square is a street nickname for a 2 square mile area in north East Phoenix). This interaction was right at the corner of what I’d learn was the square.
I asked some homeless people begging across the street at a gas station what the square is. They told me I was in it and what the boundaries are.
I walk a mile north and Meet a guy named “B”at a McDonald’s. He was really young (19) and newly homeless. We Team up for safety and he introduces me to a few people who stay under another canal. All good for now.
3 weeks in he said he was going to lay down in our spot and I went somewhere to shower. We were supposed to meet at McDonald’s. He never showed disappeared for 3 days then messages me on FB.
He said some guy claiming to be a cop in plain clothes approached him asking questions about me and stomped on his hand breaking it. “cop” told him I was one of their paid narcs.
B said he went to the hospital and when he got out asked people on the square where I was and told them about the cop. Warned me everyone thinks I’m a cop now and to watch my back. He claims he went home to his mom and I left that neighborhood shook and wondering who the “cop was” (funny enough B’s Facebook has never posted or had any action since then)
-Went back to my bridge. In 8 foot tall graffiti was “Quel” and “DAB” in very talented graffiti not just quick but would have taken hours (Z told me months before his graffiti tag was Dab and his street name is “own wick”) I ONLY EVER TOLD THE GUY PASSING ON THE BIKE THE NAME “QUEL”!
-days later slept on the back of subway restaurant directly next to my bridge. Woke up to fresh graffiti next to my head of a crown inside a heart. Next to my head on the concrete.
Many many times during these 9 months of change neighborhoods and random people approach me on the streets saying weird phrases/ personal details about me out loud (not in a conversation with me) that only Z knew. Or people would come stand near me/walk right next to me or random people on the bus would be playing the whistle song from American horror story. Never the same person and they’d always be wearing black and red. The whistle song would constantly start playing on the bus I was on or people walking by would play it on their phones.
-By this point I’m only sleeping on the light rail train in the day time I’m always walking and stay in public places/on the main road at night in front of 24 gas stations when it doesn’t run from 2-4am.
I talk to no one unless I need to score and switch up my connection every time. I’m convinced he was gang affiliated and has his fellow members stalking me too I’m on what’s considered “west side”.
Meet a guy in “sunny slope” who tells me he’s Z’s best friend from childhood (z mentioned this person before and told me he did time for him in jail for a crime Z commited). He told me this story and he doesn’t like what Z is doing and is gonna protect me and I’m his street sister. When I asked him what Z goes by on the streets he told me “Ownwick” He told me to wait at the gas station because he was gonna go pick us up blankets. Never saw him again.
I went back north. Met a girl who had a hotel room and she let me come shower. - here I meet a guy they call “the Columbian”. There is a disabled guy (who turned out to be a childhood friends cousin and I immediately trusted him) he is who pays for the motel with his ssi. We lose the hotel the next day and the Columbian takes me and another young girl (maybe 18) we met outside the hotel and a disabled guy he was manipulating to get his ssi, to a trap house. I leave her in the trap house with disabled guy and go to the store. She comes walking 10 minutes later and says some guy broke down the door with a gun and made them leave. She assumes it’s security.
Next thing I know Columbian tells me to walk with her. she gets in a car to buy some weed (I refused to get in) and never comes back. He tells me I was supposed to go with but I’m not getting trafficked and I told him that. Me and disabled dude leave him as we are both spooked.
See the Columbian at the transit center next day surrounded by street people he pulls 10 inch blue blade and charges on disabled dude for ditching him. I pull out my knife to protect and block disabled dude pushing him behind me. He sits back down and puts his knife away and mutters “I like home girl” while everyone yells (Ooooooooo). I go back to north side and leave disabled dude and tell him to get a hotel room tomorrow but ride the light rail all night. To stay safe. I decided I can’t have someone with me slowing me down I gotta keep moving.
2 days later go looking for disabled guy at his usual park near that transit center next day to see if he got the hotel. Talk to regular homeless. An old begged man who’s a vet told me a Red truck drove into the park 2 nights ago and chased him down and ran him over. They took him to hospital and people say he was in icu pretty badly fucked up.
I’m convinced At that moment Z had him killed for pulling the knife on me. I go to the transit station, fold the hoodie I’m wearing that he had given me the night we met, say a prayer on my knees and leave the sweater as a memorial.
-get on the light rail. Some random dude who honestly looks like a gang member (prisonface tattoos) leans over looking me dead in my eyes and says aye fuck them pussies south side “something” (can’t remember name) gots your back. Head up” then gets off next stop.
This is where it all became too much for me. I meet an older guy we’ll call C. We hang together on and off whenever I’m in his neighborhood “sunny slope”. One night I sleep in a tent he made in a field. Pretty secluded. He hands me a flashlight. Tells me to unscrew it. I open it and inside is a red shotgun shell. Then he shows me a weirdly shaped white oval device similar to a phone that can “hacks all internet connections”. He shows me it. I fall asleep. I wake up to him pinning me down and pulling down my pants. I tried to push him off but he raped me and then slept almost on top of me.
I leave in a complete psychosis and get arrested the next day. When I get out 3 weeks later I check my email I haven’t in months. Z wrote me a bunch of times (only while I was in jail) asking where I was and he misses me.
I go see him. He takes me to a empty shed at a random house. We sleep together because I’m honestly completely in love with him and obsessed with him but also terrified of him. He always says I’m crazy imagining it when in person.
After we sleep together he pull out his bag. He pulls out a flashlight and says shine it so I can show you this. It isn’t working. He says unscrew it. There’s the red shotgun shell again. He laughs says wrong flashlight then shows me the weird device he has that “can hack any internet connection” I leave soon after and walk 5 miles to the gas station I always am in front of at night next to the light rail in sunny slope.
Go pee. Walk out and C is there. Asks me with a huge smile if I know who stole his back pack. I scream he’s a rapist. He smiles more says so you haven’t seen ANY of my things from my backpack. Says “I wonder who has it” I hop on bus and at this point am ready to kill myself.
I go buy hair dye and dye my hair black. Then completely change all my clothes ditch my bags so I’m pretty unrecognizable. Get on the light rail and some dude with a German Shepard walks right up to me sticks his phone in my face and takes a picture. I scream at him “he’s taking my picture so Z can recognize me” and he just laughs and keeps standing in front of me taking pictures.
I get off ride the bus 4 miles then threaten to kill myself in a grocery store with a knife to my throat. 15 cops come in and they tase me twice then take me to a 72 hour psych hold to see if I should be institutionalized for 30 days. This was March 4th 2017.
While in this place some dude comes in the day after me and keeps staring and laughing at me. I tell him to leave me the fuck alone and he starts repeatedly saying “own wick,” “own wick” in a sing song voice. “Damn you look fucked up.... Own wick”. (Which is Z’s street name the guy in sunny slope told me)
So I told the psychiatrist what I was going through. That I was being stalked and only did that because I was desperate for someone to listen to my story that my family had bought a plane ticket it leaves March 8th to another state and she released me that morning instead of doing the 30 day hold and I flew to Washington that day where my daughter was got clean regained custody and built a life. We are still here.
Z denied it and said I was crazy that I was imagining things about everything through email in the weeks after. I eventually finally stopped emailing him. Honestly maybe I did imagine it. But I know for a damn fact that there’s no way I imagined the flashlight and the oval phone device. This has haunted me for years and I can’t move on from it.
If you are still reading my story thank you. Sometimes even almost 4 years later all I want is to email him. I’ve let most of it go. My biggest question I need answered that still haunts me is did Z tell this guy to rape me and set it all up? Or was he stalking me outside the tent and stole his bag to fuck with me but didn’t know about my silent rape? Feel free to comment.
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2020.11.17 22:30 Historical_Tomato_72 My parents abandoned me and my sister (Life story)

Hello Reddit,
This is my very first post on the internet and I am very nervous. I really need some opinions and best some good advice.
I'm (24, F) and will try to put this as short as possible. But to put it simply you'll be reading my (short version) life story. I'm from Germany. Sorry if some parts are confusing or maybe misleading but I'll try to use my best English knowledge
little backstory.
My mom is from Brazil and my father from Germany. They met when they were around 18 years old in Brazil. Both of them had no siblings so my sister and I had no other family members other than our grandparents. They got together, engaged, and married in a period of 20 years. When my mom was 29 she received me and two and a half years later my younger sister. Because of my father's job we had to move around many countries in between Brazil, Germany, and the US. His work paid off very well so we lived quite luxurious. My mother gave up her job to become a housewife and care for us. We moved more than 5 times to three different continents before I turned 4 years old. As my mother later told me she was fed up with moving and was worried that my sister and I would never gain closer friends and build connections and confronted my father about it. This is where „apparently“ the breaking point all began. I have a very vivid memory in my head when little me (4 y.) walked down those very long stairs in this very big house and saw my mother and father arguing in front of an open door. My father had two large suitcases next to him and took each in one hand and left while my mother was still crying. He „apparently“ wasn't happy with my mothers „Sudden“ change of mind and left her for another woman (who ironically was also from brazil)
From that point on everything changed for us... but of course, I was too small to even grasp the meaning of our situation. At the time we still lived in brazil but my mother knew that this country wouldn't be a good place to build a good life. So she packed her belongings and brought us to Germany where we stayed for the time being.
Back in Germany
Since my mother's education was very insufficient here it was hard for her to get a job that would provide for all of us. Luckily an old friend (from my father's side) offered my mother a job and made arrangements to stay on his property as long as she would work in his company. In 2004 my mother and father were officially divorced, my mother got full custody of us and my father had to pay support. Things started to escalate when my mother drowned herself in alcohol to relieve herself from the pain and suffering. She was alone, had no friends, a minor salary, and two very young children to care for. Normally you'd side with my mother in this story but the hurtful truth is that both my parents abandoned my sister and me. She started dating random guys and claimed that she was looking for a new dad for us, when all she did was screw around and get more drunk pitying herself and blaming my younger sister for EVERYTHING. I'm ashamed to say that I didn't defend my sister properly back then because I was too scared to fight back. But then again I was only 7 or 8 years old. So my sister grew up to be more confronting and fierce while I was reserved and shy.
The years have gone by and my mother is less and less attentive towards us and we grow up mostly independent. The greatest change in our lives was when she met a man online who invited all of us to live in his house. Even though he had no kids of his own, he was truly like a father to us and we love him very dearly (To this day). He loved my mother and wished for a life as a happy family together.. but he couldn't have known how wrong he was about my mother. My mother is the kindest and loving person when sober... Once she starts drinking everything and everyone is against her and WE are the reason that my father had left her. Almost every night she would start loud fights, abuse him, and treat him like garbage for the next 10 years! We lived under his roof for ten whole years and he just dealt with my mother while she reached the worst stage of her alcoholism. There were multiple times that we had to call the police because she was screaming the entire night, keeping us awake. I was so frightened. Every night I was alarmed by the slightest sound and it scarred me for life. I developed depression and was easily flustered by the smallest argument. I barricaded myself in my room and would only come out for school or food. I distracted myself with games, Youtube, and drawing. By that time drawing was almost the only thing that kept me sane and happy. My sister on the other hand would take every opportunity to leave the house and meet up with friends to escape.
I, my sister, and my Stepdad tried our best to confront her the night after her meltdowns and explain to her that we are hurt, tired, and just scared but try to work it out as a family because we still loved her. At first, she would be very apologetic and understanding. She would stop drinking for a few weeks but then start all over again and again and again. Every time we tried talking to her about her problems she would gradually brush it off and would now accuse us of attacking her. „No one understands me! Why was I cursed with children like you who don't even love their mother?!“
I should also mention that our mother had all our lives, explain to us that she had no money to spare and that we couldn't afford anything. So that's what my sister and I believed and never questioned it. We rarely asked for treats or new clothes because we didn't want to be a bigger burden on our mother. But over the years it slowly dawned on me that she had just not shared what she actually had with us. You see.. apart from the support my father had to pay her (which was above the average amount), she also worked a part-time job and got child benefit money for my sister and me. All of that money went straight to her. My sister and I never knew what she actually had but apparently had enough to buy new clothes, furniture, boose, and of course enough to run life insurance on herself.
We were done... living with her was just a daily struggle and we grew colder and colder towards her.
By the time I turned 19 Imay be and my sister (at the time 17) had enough of her and wanted to move out as soon as possible. But with what money? I had just finished school and was looking for a training position („Ausbildung“ in german) and my sister was still in school. Now. you may be asking: What about our biological father? He never once tried to stay in contact with us. In fact, we knew nothing about our father except that he workes for a very wealthy global company. This was the only clue we had to try contacting him.
We approached a Youth Welfare Office and managed by some miracle to contact his working place somewhere abroad. I remember that day when I called his office and addressed myself as the daughter to his secretary. No one knew of us. He was very quick to answer the phone and asked what we wanted. Since my sister and I have no income we needed financial support to pay for rent and food because we wanted to move out. I also sheepishly asked to stay in contact to review what happened and maybe catch up... to no avail. He accepted and signed an agreement to pay monthly support to both me and my sister but to NEVER try and reach out to him again and to never talk about the past. We were shocked of course but figured that something like that could happen. For the moment it was all we needed to move out of that toxic environment.
Present Day
It has been 5 years now since that agreement and I'm slowly building a livelihood with my fiancé. I greatly appreciate the monthly support but I since have become restless. I am still the daughter of a very rich man who has a life of wealth with his son and wife. What if one day he dies and all of the heritage goes to only his son and wife? What about my sister and me? I always wondered why we weren't good enough to be part of his life.
To tell you the truth. My fiancé and I will probably never live the life of luxury and we don't need it. But I do have dreams of traveling the world, seeing and experience all kinds of cultures, and walking on white beaches... I always had enough to live each day. Up until now, it was moderate... but I crave something more like many other people. What I wish for.. is justice. I wish for my sweet baby sister to enjoy her nights out with her boyfriend. I wish for an opportunity to give back all the people in my life who have loved and supported me something nice in return! I have enough money to maintain a car, that I need to go to work and pay my rent for a roof over my head. But most of that is not even „my“ money. It all comes from someone who doesn't give a flip about me or my sister and is probably only paying us to shut us up and to never tell a soul about our existence to keep up his reputation. I wouldn't know... it's just an assumption...
I really want to get at least part of what is rightfully mine.

Thank you for reading my story.
If you made it until the end I would like to ask you a question.
What can I do now? Is there any advice you could give me to make the next step? I have his phone number but it's probably worthless because it could be a throwaway devise.
Thank you again!
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2020.11.12 21:48 ar_david_hh Nov/12/2020 wrap-up: \\ War in Artsakh \\ Pashinyan speech about past, present, and future \\ Russian Foreign Minister Lavrov opens the parenthesis; criticizes Armenian opposition parties; comments the agreement \\ foreign response & Artsakh's status \\ political turmoil continues \\ more...

Your 15-minute Thursday report in 3946 words.

Pashinyan' message about past, present, and future

Armenia is living in extremely difficult days. There is sorrow in the hearts of all of us, tears in our eyes, and pain in the souls. The agreement to end the war, signed on November 10, caused public despair and raised many questions, to which I am expected to answer.
Why was such an unfavorable document signed? It happened in the conditions when the General Staff of the Armed Forces of the Republic of Armenia was reporting that the war should be stopped ASAP, and the Artsakh President was warning that if the hostilities continued, we could lose Stepanakert in days, in some scenarios, even in hours.
Some of you might say that if we already lost Hadrut, Shushi, we could have lost Stepanakert and not much would have changed. The reality is a little different, because if Stepanakert was lost, which, as Artsakh President Arayik Harutyunyan had already publicly confirmed would happen, then Askeran and Martakert would inevitably be lost.
In the beginning, these regions were located in the rear, quite far from the front lines, and did not have defensive structures and fortifications, and there were not enough fighting forces that could defend these areas.
This would lead to our 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7th defense zones being encircled, along with 20,000 soldiers who would either die or become POWs. Kalbajar and Qashatagh would also fall. There would be a total loss.
The most important function of the commander is to set tasks for the soldier, with a specific tactical or strategic goal. The commander sets these tasks often realizing that their implementation can lead to the death of soldiers. Being de-facto the Commander-in-Chief, I have set such tasks for the army.
But when a situation arises when a soldier can not in any way influence the further course of events, it is no longer the soldier who must die for the sake of the homeland, but the homeland must make sacrifices for the sake of the soldier.
With this in mind, I signed the infamous document. I realized that the probability of me being killed for signing it is very high but the lives of 25,000 soldiers were more important. The encircled soldiers would not have had enough force to make a breakthrough.
The decision had to be made within hours. We had no days and weeks.
Some of you are wondering why I didn't resign instead of signing it. Because that would be desertion on my part. That would mean shifting all the burden on someone else's shoulders, and today you would be calling me a hero and someone else a traitor. Also, the decision had to be made within hours.
The next question is why I didn't consult with the public before signing it. It's simple. I would have to give you the honest details and reveal all our weaknesses, while the battles continued, while the enemy was watching. That would have given them valuable info on how to encircle our troops.
Also, I promised to discuss with the public the options for the settlement of the Karabakh issue. This document does not completely end the conflict, but only a cessation of hostilities. The Karabakh issue was not resolved and is not resolved, and in this regard, there is still work to be done.
Why couldn't we prevent the war, or stop it at the initial phase, if the outcome was going to be similar? Because that would mean giving away 7 regions, including Shushi, without a fight. The second reason is we believed that by involving new military resources and hard work, we could make a breakthrough.
This is why Artsakh President and I had been making speeches with calls to enlist in the army. We had to do this in a way not to spread panic and demoralize our front line soldiers and without revealing our weaknesses to the enemy.
Everyone has done everything possible to save every inch. Our soldiers fought heroically. They fought to win and not give up. They fought against 3 armies.
Unfortunately, as Artsakh president said yesterday, we didn't help the army sufficiently. Volunteer and mobilized troops, of course with many heroic episodes, did not end up being strong enough to solve the problem. There was no other solution.
The agreement is bad for us but there is no need to make it worse. I've seen rumors about giving away Armenia's Meghri region, which is absolute nonsense. It's only about removing the transport blockade on Nakhijevan (Azerb.)
That also means we can connect Yerevan to Syunik province through Nakhijevan. We will be able to connect to Iran via railway, which will have a significant positive impact on our economy. [BTW, Turkey has already announced willingness to build a railway through Armenia to connect to Azerbaijan, so this idea looks serious.]
As for the part of Karabakh that will remain under Armenian control, we can connect to it via the Lachin corridor, including in the area near Shushi. Peacekeepers will also guarantee civilians security. It's important for refugees to return to their homes now. The government of Armenia and Artsakh will do everything to quickly recover the damage.
The issue of the final settlement of the Karabakh and the status of Artsakh is of fundamental importance. Artsakh's recognition is becoming an absolute priority and, in fact, there are more weighty arguments for the international recognition of Artsakh.
Within Armenia, we must have a stable environment. At this moment, we must ensure, first of all, that the people fully master their inalienable right to form a government, to have power. The government will not tolerate the violent provocations by the groups sponsored by the former regime. Many organizers are already under arrest. Others are in hiding.
I call on all our compatriots not to give in to provocations, and to unite around the government that is determined to help bring the country out of this situation, while guaranteeing that no one will seize power to plunder and return the country to a whirlpool of corruption.
We are reaping the bitter fruits of that robbery and corruption today. When for decades, the country's wealth had flowed into the pockets of familiar people and not to the development of the army.
Dear people, our country has a future, and we must do everything we can to make this cruel ordeal of ours an important cornerstone of that future. We as a nation will learn from the mistakes we have made.
Many will ask if we can talk about a good future after this brutal war. Yes, because there are some countries in the world today that have undergone the most brutal capitulations of the 20th century, but today are among the most powerful countries in the world.
They developed with an emphasis on education, science, industry, and democracy, and this should be our next step. And I urge all of us to focus on what we can do to strengthen our country. This will be our best service to the memory of our martyrs, our wounded and disabled servicemen and their families.
Of course, the families of the victims have to ask us a question: why did their relatives die in the end? The answer to this question is one: to save the people of Artsakh from genocide, to protect the right of the Armenian people to live. Our homage to them is the daily creative work and education that should improve our country.
Long live Freedom, Long live the Republic of Armenia, Long live the Republic of Artsakh. And long live our children who will live in a Free and Happy Armenia. I bow to our martyrs.
Video: https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034658.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612956.html

few things from earlier

Artsakh president explained yesterday that, at some point, desertion became a big issue due to low morale among non-regular troops (volunteers, reservists, etc.) and commanders leaving their positions.
A Facebook user Arbak Akopian uploaded a video showing desertion by at least 150 soldiers. Date and location unclear. Their commander allegedly ordered them to leave.
The uploader, without evidence, claims that it's the incident when someone approached the troops and told them "the whole war was a conspiracy and Pashinyan was just giving away the lands, go home."
There was such an incident that led to one person (allegedly a friend of Vitaliy Balasanyan) being arrested. No evidence this video is related to that arrest. There are reports of low morale in the south and northern fronts. It has been reported by MoD that the battles were very heavy.
https://www.facebook.com/arbakakopyan/videos/3914220051939617/?sfnsn=wa
Chief of General Staff of Army Onik Gasparyan: PM Pashinyan signed the agreement upon my proposal after a comprehensive evaluation of the situation. The Agreement was urgently needed.
https://t.me/bagramyan26/23322
Video: Armenian soldiers and ANNA reporter providing medical aid to two Azeri captured soldiers after the ceasefire:
https://youtu.be/gKyywj_0Kwg?t=40
Video: Interview with the members of SOAD. They collected $600,000 during the charity event:
https://youtu.be/DJ3guWqDbnY
A French doctor has confirmed that an Armenian soldier suffered from burns caused by a phosphorus weapon. This is the first instance of an independent party verifying that Azerbaijan used this weapon against soldiers.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034628.html

peacekeepers & troops in Artsakh

Russian peacekeepers will use Mi-8 and Mi-24 helicopters besides surveillance drones to monitor the activities. They were flown to Armenia with a cargo jet yesterday.
414 soldiers have been stationed so far, out of 2k. More have arrived in Armenia's Goris city for future deployment. The first troops arrived in Stepanakert today.
The troop rotation will happen at least twice a year. "They have peacekeeping experience in Syria and elsewhere."
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034643.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612891.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612972.html
"We are in the north-eastern border. The 'Yerevan' and 'Red Berets 5165' detachments continue to stand in their positions," wrote Yerevan mayor Marutyan. The troops are waiting for peacekeepers before a withdrawal.
https://factor.am/308469.html

about the Russian helicopter shot by Azerbaijan

Azeri official: In war, as in war, anything can happen. (պատերազմում, ինչպես պատերազմում, ամեն ինչ կարող է պատահել)
Russian MFA: That's a big mistake. If we adhered to that principle, our response would have been crushing. We hope Azerbaijan won't allow itself similar ambiguous statements regarding this tragic incident anymore. Russia has accepted Azerbaijan's apology and confession. We expect a speedy investigation.
https://news.am/arm/news/613071.html

the political turmoil continues

00:35 ruling QP party about calls to cancel the Agreement: The war began due to geopolitical events, which led to the collapse of several ceasefire deals. Accepting the Agreement was the only solution to save the rest of Artsakh and thousands of lives.
The public should receive the answers to their questions, but we won't join the committee suggested by the opposition parties because that would endanger lives on front lines.
Before we discuss the topic of the legality of this Agreement, we demand that the opposition parties publicly announce that they:
1) Support the cancellation of Russian mediation.
2) Support the withdrawal of Russian peacekeepers.
3) Support the resumption of war.
After they publicly state this, the opposition must then present their ideas on how to win the war upon its resumption.
https://news.am/arm/news/612858.html
"We have nothing else to lose. We will continue this struggle until we can shed a light of hope in this darkness," said an opposition ARF member.
"We are not against peacekeepers. We come to find a way out of this situation," said another ARF member.
Other opposition parties also criticized QP's message, saying "the party is deepening the crisis by refusing to use constitutional methods [Parliamentary session to revoke Agreement] to resolve the crisis."
https://factor.am/308451.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612960.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612957.html
1:06: ARF and other allies of the former govt have urged the law enforcement to release the members who were arrested yesterday. The police had warned against organizing demonstrations during Martial Law.
Among the detained are BHK Tsarukyan, Garnik Isaghulyan, Gegham Manukyan, Davit Hambardzumyan, Arthur Vanetsyan, Edward Shawarmazanov, Ishkhan Saghatelyan, and few others.
They are told not to leave the country as part of the ongoing investigation. [meaning at least some of them will be released for now]
A new demonstration will be held today at 5 pm. The opposition believes the internet will be shut down today to stop them [later update: there were no reports of internet shutoffs].
https://factor.am/308441.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612862.html , https://factor.am/308477.html
10:09: RAK Ramkavar party once again call for the "society to avoid serious political upheavals, to refrain from unconstitutional actions, and emotional decisions."
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034642.html
10:53: traffic jam was formed coming from Ejmiatsin and Abovyan. The police installed roadblocks on the highway with Yerevan. The opposition says it's done to suppress demonstrations.
Yesterday the police began checking vehicles to ensure weapons weren't being smuggled by those returning from Artsakh.
https://youtu.be/MVSn7vyKCKs?t=5 , https://news.am/arm/news/612932.html
11:17 MoD: the rumors of a Turkish drone flying over Yerevan yesterday were false...
Armenian and Russian air bases have closed the air for all flights except military and pre-approved Civil Aviation.
https://news.am/arm/news/612915.html
11:43 "The ruling QP party should take steps towards civic solidarity. They should appear in Parliament and take part in sessions. Right now de-facto we don't have a government," said LHK leader Marukyan. Another MP called for Pashinyan's resignation.
https://news.am/arm/news/612920.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612906.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612993.html
11:45: Artsakh's Justice Minister, from an opposition party, has resigned. The head of the Security Office followed the suit. Two other officials resigned later.
https://news.am/arm/news/612922.html ,
11:50: President Sarkissian separately met PM Pashinyan and members of various political parties.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034649.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612984.html
12:54: opposition BHK MP has called for law enforcement bodies to disobey the govt orders. She claims the ruling party members are arming themselves and that weapons were distributed yesterday.
https://news.am/arm/news/612940.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612936.html
14:54: over a dozen people were arrested over rioting and breaking into the govt building on Tuesday. Three more arrested today over burglarizing PM's residence that day.
https://news.am/arm/news/612974.html
15:59: ARF party believes that since the transport link connecting Nakhijevan to Azerbaijan goes through Armenia, that means it needs approval by the Parliament and the Constitutional Court.
The Constitutional Court says they'll discuss issues only if someone initiates a proper legal process to submit a dispute.
https://news.am/arm/news/612991.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612969.html
16:12: a ruling QP MP threatened to retaliate "if the [former regime allies] appear in front of my house and threaten my family again. You're lucky I wasn't home."
https://news.am/arm/news/612998.html
17:00: Prime Minister's office staff will return to work tomorrow.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034682.html
17:18: now-former acting chief of NSS Mikael Hambardzumyan, who resigned a few days ago, has urged Pashinyan to go easy on opposition members and not arrest them despite the Martial Law violations, reminding him about an internal agreement they earlier had about going easy on the opposition.
The ex-NSS chief urged the opposition to calm down, saying he knows Pashinyan and the position he was in, and that "he is an honest and patriotic person, and so is his family, and so are the people protesting on the streets."
He called for new elections that will decide whether the public agrees with Pashinyan or not.
https://news.am/arm/news/613010.html
17:30: the police found large quantities of weapons brought from Artsakh while searching vehicles on roadblocks installed in various cities.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034684.html , https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034709.html
18:07: the opposition parties and demonstrators are holding a rally. They marched between different buildings with different demands.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034695.html
18:15: First president LTP spoke with Russian ambassador Kopirnik.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034696.html
18:18: PM Pashinyan met his QP party colleagues to discuss the events before, during, and after the war.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034698.html
19:49: Army spokesman Artsrun Huvhannisyan was having blood pressure issues on November 9th and skipped the usual 22:00 briefing. It turns out he resigned the same day.
"I was tasked with doing my part of the war, in the information field. Professional researchers will study my performance over time. No one is perfect. The information I gave to the public came from the Armenian and Artsakh armies.
Yes, I was confident that we would win, also based on the warfare led by many of my military friends. I left the position on November 9th. I will continue to work in the scientific field."
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034702.html
20:04: Opposition parties have ended their rally. 20 participants were detained. They'll gather again tomorrow.
2 anti-opposition activists were detained for confronting the opposition officials during the demonstration.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034703.html , https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034705.html , https://factor.am/308854.html
20:57: opposition Arthur Vanetsyan was released from detention. He was arrested earlier for organizing a rally during the ongoing Martial/Emergency Law. He is among those who are told not to leave Armenia.
Opposition Ishkhan Saghatelyan was also released, per court ruling.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034706.html , https://news.am/arm/news/613085.html
21:39 wounded QP MP Sasun: over 3,500 of my Yerkrapah colleagues defended the borders. Unfortunately, we have 69 deaths, 79 wounded, 2 missing, 1 POW. I bow to their mothers and thank them for raising brave men.
We are still in a war. Internal provocations will increase our losses.
I ask Artsakh residents to return to their homes and continue to build it. We have never and will never abandon our Artsakh.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034711.html

Russian Foreign Minister Lavrov's comments about the agreement and past negotiations

The current phase of the conflict began after, for a long period, negative and emotional statements were accumulated. It would have been better if the conflict was resolved a lot sooner based on OCSE Minks Group principles.
If we went with that OCSE suggestion, that would still return 7 regions to Azerbaijan, but it would be done without shedding blood and it would be a final political solution.
At one point in the past, both sides had agreed with the measures that would establish physical safety, but more recently, the safety was questioned. There were complaints that the measures would not establish enough safety if 7 regions were returned to Azerbaijan. Both sides began making emotional and aggressive statements. Clashes began on the borders.
Karabakh's Status depends on the steps we are yet to take to restore the ethno-confessional agreement, as it was years before the 1990s war. The Status will be clarified only after it's clear what rights will past/current populations have. For now, we need to rebuild trust and inter-ethnic peace. We need to rebuild the churches and mosques and allow residents to live peacefully.
We see the demonstrations in Yerevan. We see how the opposition is trying to speculate on this situation. Undoubtedly, there are sincere people for whom it is insulting that everything ended at this stage.
It was illusions that the 7 regions of Karabakh should have remained for centuries in that state. Responsible [Armenian] governments should have explained to the public that, at some stage, the conflict was supposed to be resolved based on the documents that were on the table. These documents pave the way for security for Armenians living in Artsakh.
Of course, the removal of the transport and economic blockade on Armenia will positively affect Armenia's development. It suffered more from the blockade than its neighbors did.
This agreement restores those communication channels. The economy should get a breath of fresh air. There should be transport communication with Armenia's partners.
I'm confident that if we all follow the agreement, everyone will come out in a favorable position.
Yesterday Vladimir Putin spoke with PM Pashinyan and today with MFA Mnatsakanyan. I'm sure the Armenian govt understands the responsibility and will respect the signature in the interest of its people.
In any case, I see many political forces in Armenia who understand what is happening and draw the right conclusions from it.
There won't be Turkish peacekeepers in Karabakh. The Turkish-Russian joint monitoring center will be away from Karabakh and work remotely. They'll monitor to make sure neither side violates the ceasefire.
https://news.am/arm/news/612980.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612977.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612966.html , https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034681.html

foreign response

Vladimir Putin's spokesman Peskov: Vladimir Putin praised the constructive approach of Tayyip Erdogan, which will resolve the disagreements. Initially, we had disagreements over the peaceful settlement of this conflict but our cooperation showed effectiveness in solving various regional problems.
https://news.am/arm/news/612953.html
US Congressman Bred Sherman: Russian-Turkish conditions aimed at ending Azerbaijan's aggression against Artsakh and Armenia are unfair. The inaction of the Trump administration has led to catastrophic consequences for the people of Armenia.
Who made this ceasefire agreement? None other than Putin and Erdogan. This is the result of the absence of US leadership. We must not stand by this catastrophic deal that has been imposed on Armenia. We should not consider it a final settlement.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034644.html
MFA of Canada: We are working with international partners to study the terms and consequences of this agreement. We continue to support the Armenian people, with whom we have strong human ties.
We expect Azerbaijan to respect its commitments and permanently end hostilities. Turkey must refrain from participating in the conflict. All parties must negotiate a lasting and peaceful agreement within the framework of the OSCE Minsk Group Co-Chairs.
https://news.am/arm/news/612917.html
Hadrut is one of the southern cities in Artsakh captured by Azerbaijan. Hadrut refugees gathered in front of the French embassy and asked for action, reminding that France had acknowledged the presence of terrorists brought by Azerbaijan.
French embassy welcomed the gatherers, accepted their letter, and said "Our priority is to support the people who have suffered as a result of this conflict. We will take into account what French President Macron said yesterday about defending Armenia's interests."
The refugees then went to the U.S. embassy and handed over a letter that calls for the U.S. to "de-occupy Hadrut from terrorists". They'll meet ambassador Lynne Tracey.
They also went to the Russian embassy with a similar message.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034665.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612970.html , https://news.am/arm/news/612945.html
French MP Valerie Boyer criticized the govt and accused it of being too passive throughout the war.
https://news.am/arm/news/612995.html
US Representative Frank Pallone: The International Community must finally recognize the right to self-determination for the people of Artsakh and their role as negotiators. Without that, they will continue to face future assaults by Azeri and Turkish forces without any option of formal redress.
Any future negotiated settlement supported by the U.S. must ensure the people of Artsakh can reconstruct their communities and rebuild their lives without fear of further bloodshed. The terms laid out in the current ceasefire are untenable for Artsakh's long-term security.
The ceasefire signed earlier this week regarding Nagorno Karabakh isn't a long-term peace settlement. There are many critical issues that must be resolved before this conflict can come to a lasting resolution. @StateDept must immediately reengage with @OSCE to address them.
https://twitter.com/FrankPallone/status/1326671592018104320
https://news.am/arm/news/612909.html
German BILD article: We have watched this war happen – and stood idly by
https://m.bild.de/politik/international/bild-international/paul-ronzheimer-about-karabakh-we-have-watched-this-war-happen-73872944,view=amp.bildMobile.html?__twitter_impression=true

COVID stats:

+4583 tested. +2132 infected. +1794 healed. +32 deaths. 40452 active. 453033 tested.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034648.html

schools to resume

Education Ministry: studies show that COVID has significant negative effects on education. It leads not only to irreversible gaps in the development of children but also reduces their social protection.
University/college students will take online classes only, except for hands-on classes.
Some of 5-12 graders will attend physically, others do it online.
Preschoolers, 1-4 graders, and Arts students will attend school, because online classes create some difficulties with efficiency.
https://armenpress.am/arm/news/1034655.html

You can help Artsakh & Armenia

www.1000plus.am (soldiers' medical help)
www.HimnaDram.org (for Artsakh & Armenia)
www.ArmeniaFund.org (U.S. tax-deductible)
 
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2020.11.12 20:38 xB0BCATx AITA burning a bridge with my friend because they befriended my ex?

So this is gonna be hard to explain but I'll try my best. I was part of an Amino group where I used to flirt and date around, not really taking much seriously. I dated a girl that would later be an off and on friend and would become the head leader of the Amino. We weren't the best of friends and we tend to but heads on certain things but we still cared for each other even if we didn't know how to treat each other after we broke up. I later got into a very serious relationship with a German girl from the same app. It was great until it wasn't. We dated for 2 years till we had a huge falling out due to us not really being compatible and becoming toxic towards each other in the process of trying to make it work regardless.
After the break up my friend, who didn't care for this woman and never spoke to her mostly because my ex hated her, started caring about her because she broke up with me. Keep in mind that I didn't really have anyone that checked in on me while she was a socialite with support groups both in and outside of the internet so for some reason my friend thought that "she needed a friend" and she "did it out of the kindness of her heart." I became really depressed and nihilistic because it felt like people only cared about me because I was dating this woman at the time. I later asked my friend to ban me from the community because I just completely gave up at that point.
I made another account after that and started speaking to my friend. We apologized and tried to make things right between each other.....or at least I tried. She just started pushing me away, not engaging with me in conversation, and started treating my ex better than me. I finally had enough, went back on my apology, and blew the hell up on her. She didn't understand where all of my anger came from and called me crazy and hateful but I didn't care, I was just done with the whole situation and wanted to give her a reason never to talk to me again.
Even though I felt good about this am I the asshole for burning a bridge with this friend? Am I as crazy as she says I am?
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2020.11.12 16:30 Electrical_Donuts I’m 24 years old and I make $51,660 as a preschool teacher in the Chicago suburbs

edit: I’m on mobile so sorry for any formatting issues!
Section One: Assets and Debt Retirement balance: 4,500 in a Roth IRA It’s required that 9% of my salary is automatically added into the Illinois Teacher Retirement System. The salary I listed already includes the 9% taken out (more on that in a different section). I don’t count this as my retirement balance because it goes into one big pot that is used for pensions (amongst other things) after teachers retire. There is a formula to determine what you will receive based on years teaching and income. HYSA: 3,253.81 Brokerage: 1,245 Credit Card Debt: 0. I pay it off every month Student loan debt: None. I went to an in-state school that was covered mainly by academic and low-income scholarships. I paid the rest with money my great-grandpa left when he died, which was about ~6,000 total. My master’s degree was covered 100% by a federal grant I received and it included a monthly stipend for living expenses. Car loan: I have a little over 16,000 left on my car payment. I just bought a new car in September after driving a 2000 Honda for almost 10 years.
Section Two: Income Income Progression: This is my first year working as a teacher full time. I make significantly more than most first-year teachers because of my master’s degree. Since I work in a public school and salary schedules are made publicly available, I have a solid idea of what my income will look like each year. I have worked part time since I was 15, and the most I’ve ever made was during my masters degree when I got a $1,000 stipend monthly in exchange for 10 hours of work.
Main Job Monthly Take Home: $3,143 Deductions As noted above, 9% of my salary is required to go to the Teacher Retirement System. I’m not sure if all school districts do it like this, but mine considers my salary to be the number after the 9% is taken out. If I were to call my HR department and ask what my salary is, they’d tell me $51,660. I never see that additional 9%. Union dues: $121.28 Retirement: I’m not including retirement for the reasons stated above. Health insurance: My dad has made it very clear that I am able to stay on his insurance until I am 26 or married, so I am taking advantage of that while I can.
Side gig money: I also work as a therapist in the Early Intervention system and as a research associate. I get paid for EI work directly through the state, but they are always 4-6 weeks behind on payments. When I do get paid, it’s about $100 for 2 hours of work, and it goes to my HYSA. My research work varies as I am on an hourly position, which is $23/hour.
Section Three: Expenses Note: I live with my fiancé. While he makes a little more than me, he still has student debt that he is paying off. We split all shared expenses 50/50, as noted below. Rent: $810 (my half) Utilities: ~$25 (my half) Car payment: $455. I chose a 4 year payment plan so I have high payments, which I sometimes regret Internet: $20 (my half) Hulu + live TV: $27.50 (my half, my mom uses it in exchange for her paying my phone bill still) Renters insurance: $3.75 (my half) Spotify: $7.50 (my half) Roth IRA: $300 Ally: $300 Brokerage account: $300 We don’t pay for a gym membership and we get Netflix from N’s parents.
Day 1: Sunday
6:15 AM: My fiancé, N, and I wake up to the sound of our pup moving around in her crate. She is our alarm clock and always wakes up around this time. I let her out and the three of us lay on the couch and fall back asleep.
8:05 AM: Awake for real this time. I shower while N makes pancakes and hash browns for breakfast. I drink the last of my cold brew coffee and make a new batch. While we eat breakfast, we make a grocery list.
9:00 AM: I head out to go grocery shopping. First stop is Aldi where I get bagged salads, pomegranates, blueberry muffins, sweet potatoes, broccoli, bread, and pistachios ($25.20). Next stop is Mariano’s. I get tortilla chips, spaghetti, granola, almond milk coffee cream, pancake mix, peanut butter, rice cakes, cereal, cauliflower, siggis yogurt, and a bunch of Luna bars. This was a bigger trip as we stocked up on items we bring to work and keep there ($69.29). The total for this trip was $94.49, so my half is $47.25. $47.25
10:30 AM: Home and N and I unload groceries. We hangout on the couch and watch the Great British Baking Show until it’s time to go to puppy training class. They only allow 1 person in per dog, and I have been the one to go since the start due to our work schedules. We have been lucky and the weather hasn’t been too bad, so class has always been outside.
12:40 PM: Back from class. The pup is exhausted and goes right to sleep. I roast some vegetables and make quinoa for my lunches. N and I review our finances from the week. We split shared expenses such as rent, utilities, dog-related costs, and household supplies 50/50. We put shared expenses on one credit card, update our spreadsheet weekly with the expenses, and split the bill at the end of the month. Personal expenses are on our own individual cards.
10:00 PM: We spend the day….doing nothing. At some point, we take a walk with the pup. Lights out at 10!
Total: $47.25
Day 2 Monday 6:15 AM: Like clockwork, the pup is up. I shower and get ready while N takes care of her. While he showers, I enjoy some puppy snuggles and give her a pep talk as this is her first day at a new doggy daycare and she can be a little anxious. I eat an apple and peanut butter for breakfast.
7:30 AM: Grab my multiple work bags, lunch, and the pup and head out the door. I can’t go in the center due to COVID, so I call when I arrive and someone meets us at my car. She looks back at me with her tail between her legs and it hurts my heart.
8:05 AM: I get to work. I am a preschool teacher in a public school. We have been required to work on site for about a month now, even though we are in remote learning. We are supposed to return to in-person learning in 2 weeks. I spend the morning facilitating virtual circle times (it goes exactly how you image it would with a handful of 3-5 year olds), planning for next week, and prepping my classroom for in-person learners.
11:30 AM: Lunch break. I eat in the hallway exactly 6 feet apart (they placed markers on the floor) from a few other teachers. I eat a salad from Aldi and some quinoa and veggies.
12:00 PM: Lunch goes by too quickly. I head back to work. The afternoon is a repeat of the morning but with a new group of kids. I call a parent just to check in and see if they need anything since they haven’t been participating in a while.
3:30 PM: I leave work and head to dog daycare to pick up the pup. She had a great first day! N and I decided ahead of time that if it went well, we’d buy a package of days. We buy a 20 day package for $510, and the cost for her first day was $24. We split this cost, so it comes out to $267 for my half. This will come out of my HYSA as I have some money in there earmarked for pet expenses. $267
4:15 PM: We’re home! The pup knocks out on the couch almost immediately and I finish up some work tasks. Right now, I don’t mind bringing work home as I like to leave work before traffic gets super bad.
5:30 PM: N gets home. We catch up on our days and make tacos for dinner. We talk about wanting to take a trip over winter break and brainstorm ideas that require the least amount of contact with people and are within driving distance. The winner is driving to the Smoky Mountains and staying in a cabin. We start looking at places and take note of their cancellation policies just in case.
10:30 PM: After a relaxing evening of Netflix and puppy cuddles, we head to bed.
Daily total: $267
Day 3: Tuesday
6:15 AM: Same routine as yesterday morning, but today, N brings the pup to his sisters house for the day. Our pup is almost 7 months old and she has SEVERE anxiety as a whole, but especially separation anxiety. She hates being alone and we have tried literally everything (everything) besides medication. Our vet said she wants to wait to see if anything changes as she gets older before prescribing her medication so young, especially since it can have side effects. So we make it work for now with a mix of daycare and family.
8:10 AM: I get to work. I start to get very overwhelmed after we get emails rapid fired at us about changes for in person learning. I write everything down on a list and decide I’ll organize it later. I listen to Armchair Expert podcast throughout the morning while working.
11:30 AM: Lunch break. I eat in my classroom while sitting in on a planning meeting over Zoom. After lunch, I break up my list of tasks into categories and it feels much more realistic. I get to task 1: find/make visuals to help with social distancing in the classroom. I also do my circle times and check in on the activities that were assigned for today.
4:00 PM: Home from work. I go to the gym before I lose the motivation. Afterwards, I work on one of my side gigs (research-related) until N gets home.
6:00 PM: N gets home with the pup. I made spaghetti with pesto for dinner and we eat it with carrots and hummus. Very weird combination, I know, but there are no rules.
7:00 PM: We get cozy on the couch and do a mix of video games, TV, and reading before bed.
10 PM: Lights out!
Daily total: $0
Day 4 Wednesday 6:20 AM: We get to sleep in an extra 5 minutes today! I get up and shower while N takes care of the doggo. Today is a dog daycare day, so we pack her lunch and give her some extra love.
11:30 AM: Lunch in the hallway. I eat the same thing for lunch basically everyday: grains with a bunch of veggies and a salad. I am a creature of habit. While eating, we get a bunch of plexiglass dividers delivered to our rooms to use at our tables in our classrooms. It is very weird seeing all of this come together.
2:30 PM: They call a last minute staff meeting to tell us the return to in-person learning date has been pushed back 2 weeks again due to the increase of COVID cases. What a rollercoaster. This is the 3rd time this has happened. It is super hard to be fully focused on remote learning and making it the best I can while also planning and preparing for in-person learning.
3:30 PM: Done with work. I’m tempted to go to the dollar store down the street to get some bins to organize my room a bit more, but feel bad about all the money that is being spent on the pup now with daycare and decide it can wait.
4:15 PM: I picked up the pup and am home from work. I do some dishes, and meal prep while listening to podcasts. When N gets home, we have frozen fried rice and egg rolls from Trader Joe’s for dinner.
7:00 PM: I do a HIIT video from YouTube. We have a free gym in our apartment building, but it is very small and I don’t feel comfortable going in it.
8:00 PM: After a quick body shower, we watch David Letterman’s show on Netflix until bed. Who would’ve thought Robert Downey Jr. basically has a petting zoo in his backyard?
Daily Total: $0
Day 5 Thursday
6:15 AM: Same ol’ routine.
11:30 AM: I eat lunch in my classroom today and watch a professional development video on promoting social-emotional learning while social distancing in a classroom. I think about all the important skills we’d normally be learning together like sharing, taking turns, and problem solving, and how those are going to look very different when we return in person.
3:30 PM: Today flew by! We did a really fun sink or float experiment over Zoom and the kiddos loved it. This remote learning has really been a struggle, especially since so much of the kids’ participation relies on the parents helping them out, and I know all parents are stressed and overwhelmed right now. I do my best to teach them how to unmute themselves, but there’s only so much you can do when they’re 3 years old. Successful days like these feel extra special.
4:15 PM: I’m home from work and do another HIIT workout and body shower. I relax on the couch until N and the pup get home. We make veggie tacos again for dinner with quinoa, broccoli, sweet potatoes, corn, and salsa. Delicious.
7:30 PM: I get an email from work that someone in our building tested positive for COVID-19. This is the fifth case we have had so far. Through contact tracing, each time it was deemed that I was not in close contact with the person. I really wonder why all 150 staff members need to go to the school to teach remote and risk getting sick when we made it work at home perfectly fine for the first 8 weeks. I spend the rest of the night being annoyed and watching New Girl on Netflix.
Daily Total: $0
Day 6 Friday
6:15 AM: It’s Friday! N takes the dog out and then we let her snuggle in bed with us for a few minutes before getting up to start the day. The school doesn’t temperature check us when we arrive, and I feel fine, but I check mine just in case after the email last night and I’m in the clear. When N leaves with the pup, I place an order on the Starbucks app for a spinach and egg white wrap and a vanilla sweet cream cold brew. I treat myself to this every other Friday and otherwise drink my cold brew from home. I’m about a dollar short on my card to cover this, so I reload with $10. $10.
10:15 AM: I spend some time thinking about what our next unit of study will be. Most of the kiddos come to circle time in their pajamas (which I would be doing too if it was allowed) and they always point out the different characters on each other’s clothing. After some reflecting on their interests and the upcoming objectives we are supposed to teach, I settle on clothing and brainstorm some activities they can do at home.
11:30 AM: Lunch in the hallway! They are now requiring that we also sit behind plexiglass now. I mixed it up today and brought a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and a salad. It sounds weird to say, but food has never really been that exciting for me. I could eat the same thing every day and it wouldn’t bother me.
3:30 PM: I send a message to my families thanking them for all the hard work they are putting into remote learning to end the week right and head home!
4:30 PM: I have a teletherapy session for a kiddo I’m seeing in Early Intervention. This is one of our last ones before he turns 3, so I spend some time talking about the transition to preschool with mom.
5:30 PM: When we first moved in together, N and I decided that we would limit our eating out together to once a week. Today we decide to get a hodgepodge of food and some beers from a local place German place for contactless carry out. I call when I arrive and they put the food on a table near the front door for me to grab. The total plus tip is $58.64 ($29.32 for my half). $29.32
Total: $39.32
Day 7 Saturday
6:15 AM: Like clock work, the pup is up. We let her out and all fall back asleep on the couch.
7:30 AM: We are up again. We take advantage of our early morning wake up and head to the dog park before it gets too busy. Both N and I are working in person and have had COVID cases at our workplaces, so we try really hard to avoid being around other people, including our own families. My dad lives less than 10 minutes away and I haven’t seen him in person in almost 2 weeks. The closest we’ve gotten is me sitting in my car and him standing in his driveway. We get lucky and no one else is at the park! We blow bubbles with the pup while she runs around off leash and she has a blast.
9:00 AM: We get home and the pup goes right back to sleep in her crate. N makes pancakes with berries and hash browns for breakfast. He plays video games on the TV while I play on my switch. At some point, we take turns taking a break to workout and showering. I also finally pull the trigger on a 12 pack of Bombas socks that have been in my cart for a while. I have a coupon code so it comes out to $98. I have second thoughts right after confirming the purchase, but remember that good quality socks are an investment. $98
12:20 PM: We eat veggie tacos again for lunch (can you tell neither of us particularly enjoys cooking) and then get to cleaning. When we moved in together, we made a list of tasks that would have to be done around the apartment and split them up. This system worked really well for us. I find cleaning oddly therapeutic so I take on things like washing the sheets, giving the kitchen a good clean, and wiping down other surfaces. N vacuums, takes out the garbage, and does the dishes. We jam to Hamilton (my choice) on the speaker.
4:00 PM: I FaceTime one of my best friends from college who is also a teacher. Afterwards, N and I play Scrabble. We bought a few board games a while ago to help keep us busy and off the TV since we really don’t do anything social on weekends now a days. We have some beers to make it interesting.
4:40 PM: I’m reminded why I hate Scrabble. I power through until dinner time and throw a frozen pizza in the oven. After eating, we take a walk outside.
7:00 PM: We spend the rest of the night watching Chapelle’s Show on Netflix since it was recently added!
Daily total: $0
Weekly total: $451.57 Food & drink: $86.57 Other: $267 Clothing: $98
Reflection: This was a unique week of spending because of the dog daycare and socks purchase. My spending during the week is definitely usually less than this. This is my first year being out of school and working a full-time adult job and I’m trying to be conscious of my spending and build my savings and retirement account, especially since I don’t exactly trust Illinois’ Teacher Retirement System. If I stick with the same school district next year, I will also open a 403(b). My fiancé and I are very much so on the same page when it comes to expenses and how we spend our money and communicate about it frequently. A few days after we adopted our pup, she got really sick and we spent about $4,000 on her. That was completely unexpected and we both dipped into our savings accounts, but we had no other choice. This made us extra diligent about saving money.
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2020.11.11 18:32 daprice82 Wrestling Observer Rewind ★ Nov. 4, 2002

Going through old issues of the Wrestling Observer Newsletter and posting highlights in my own words. For anyone interested, I highly recommend signing up for the actual site at f4wonline and checking out the full archives.
PREVIOUSLY:
1-7-2002 1-14-2002 1-21-2002 1-28-2002
2-4-2002 2-11-2002 2-18-2002 2-25-2002
3-4-2002 3-11-2002 3-18-2002 3-25-2002
4-1-2002 4-8-2002 4-15-2002 4-22-2002
4-29-2002 5-6-2002 5-13-2002 5-20-2002
5-27-2002 6-3-2002 6-10-2002 6-17-2002
6-24-2002 7-1-2002 7-8-2002 7-15-2002
7-22-2002 7-29-2002 8-5-2002 8-12-2002
8-26-2002 9-2-2002 9-9-2002 9-16-2002
9-23-2002 9-30-2002 10-07-2002 10-14-2002
10-21-2002 10-28-2002
  • The results of the Katie Vick angle are in. WWE did the angle last week in an effort to stir up controversy in a desperate ratings grab. Didn't work. This week's Raw was the lowest-watched episode of the show in almost 5 years. On the flip side, this week's Smackdown was the highest rated since April, just in case it's not apparent which approach is working. Paul Heyman's wrestling-centric show is holding up while Raw Is Necrophilia clearly is not. To be fair, from what Dave has heard, most of the people involved in producing the show also thought the Katie Vick angle was horrible. Seems like this is one of those things that only Vince thought was funny and everyone else was forced to go along with (Bruce Prichard has said this himself on the podcast. Says he and everyone else were horrified at having to do the angle this way, but Vince overruled them all). Vince was said to be pretty pissed off about the backlash from the fans while receiving practically no mainstream coverage. He actually wanted to replay the angle later in the show, but was talked out of it after it aired the first time.
  • In regards to fan displeasure, TNN was inundated with emails and phone calls and WWE themselves received more than 1,300 complaints. TNN finally released a statement, simply saying that the angle didn't violate their standards and practices. In Australia, where it was edited, the Fox Sports Australia spokesman said it wasn't appropriate for children and would not air again on their network. In Europe, they pretty much digitized the entire screen when it started and then cut away to a shot of the flowers when it got worse, so those viewers didn't see most of the angle either. Vince has doubled-down, sending a memo this week to the creative team that said they are going to continue on the creative course they're going down. The memo was said to be written in a very smart-ass, dismissive way of people who were criticizing the angle. In other words, fuck 'em if they don't like it. So expect more corpse-boning and other soap opera storylines and if you don't like it, suck Vince's dick. That's pretty much the gist. We're heading into sweeps season, where TV ratings are more important than ever. And this month will determine whether Vince McMahon is the kind of promoter who listens to his audience, or if he's the kind of promoter who believes he can convince the audience to like what he likes (pretty sure time has proven the answer to that one).
  • WWE announced this week that Scott Steiner has signed a contract. No word on what the money is, but it's confirmed that his contract calls for no more than 14 dates per month, which is pretty much the same schedule Undertaker has. Basically, Scott will work all TVs and PPVs and a handful of house shows. In the short-term, this should be a good boost. Other than Sting or Goldberg, Steiner is pretty much the only guy on the market who could come in and have big time name recognition from day one and maybe move the needle. He still has enough star power from WCW that he can probably work a handful of matches with top WWE stars and do big business. Long-term though....that's another story. WWE is going to need to push him hard from the start and get everything they can out of him as fast as they can because it's unknown how well Steiner's body can hold up to even a 14-date-per-month schedule. No word which show he's going to be on, because they're planning to do an angle where both shows are fighting over him. But Dave expects him to end up on Raw since they need the star power and he figures Steiner vs. Triple H for the title is the natural direction (yup). The last time Steiner wrestled was on recent shows for NJPW and he looked horrible there, clearly in pain and not able to do much. So time will tell.
  • Motoko Baba, the widowed wife of Giant Baba, officially stepped away from the wrestling business at a ceremony at AJPW's latest Budokan Hall show. Ms. Baba had already turned over the reins of the company to Keiji Muto a few weeks back, but this ceremony was her official send off in the arena AJPW has called home since 1972. She gave a brief speech to the crowd and thanked them for their support over the past 30 years. Elsewhere on the show, Muto (wrestling under his Great Muta gimmick) captured the Triple Crown title from Genichiro Tenryu. Only 8 days after blowing his right knee out and spending the whole week on crutches, Muto went in and wrestled like he had a death wish, doing 3 moonsaults among other things. After it was over, Muto's knee was said to be hurting worse than ever before. But he's not stopping, and they announced plans for Muto to face Bob Sapp at next week's big Yokohama Arena show. Goldberg is expected to work that show as well.
WATCH: Genichiro Tenryu vs. Great Muta - AJPW 2002
  • WWE's Rebellion PPV is in the books and as usual for these UK-only PPVs, it was pretty much just a glorified house show. Dave recaps it and there's nothing of note here. Angle & Benoit vs. The Guerreros was the best match but duh. Lesnar & Heyman beat Edge in the main event. And that's basically it.
  • Dave has finally seen the video of the recent NJPW Tokyo Dome show and reviews it. Bob Sapp was over like crazy and was by far the biggest star on the show. Sooner or later, the wheels are gonna come off this Sapp train and he's gonna get overexposed. But for right now, he's the hottest star in all of Japanese wrestling or MMA. Chyna vs. Masahiro Chono was as awful as expected. Chono laid into Chyna with some kicks harder than Dave expected. He also sold for her way too much and it looked like a joke. After the match, she cut a promo saying her goal is to be the first female IWGP champion. Yuji Nagata vs. Kazuyuki Fujita was the main event for the title and it was good but not great. The show ended on TV showing Chyna sitting in Bob Sapp's lap and acting like they were going to make out. Sure.
PHOTO: Only pic I can find of Sapp and Chyna together
  • There's a big story on the upcoming Tito Ortiz vs. Ken Shamrock UFC fight that kinda devolves into a story about MMA companies trying to distance themselves from pro wrestling. He talks about recent comments made by Dana White about how the wrestling audience helped them in the early days, but now they want to target "true sports fans" and have no interest in the fans who want soap opera drama. In Japan, pro wrestling fans are by far the biggest crossover audience for PRIDE and K-1 and matches with pro wrestlers are always the biggest draws. But both companies are also trying to distance themselves from wrestling, going to great lengths to never mention "pro wrestling" publicly. When Goldberg did commentary for K-1 a couple months back, they were noticeably doing everything they could to avoid mentioning that he's a famous wrestler, never once acknowledging it. Dave seems to think it's a mistake. Like it or not, pro wrestling is a huge draw for young viewers and being able to "cut promos" and get people interested enough to buy PPVs is a vital part of the MMA business and if you try to hide from that, it's not going to go well (sure enough, to this day, the biggest UFC draws tend to be the guys who aren't just great fighters, but who can also talk big shit the best. Conor McGregor being the obvious example). Anyway, this piece is really long and interesting look at UFC's business in 2002.
  • It appears TNA has struck a deal with Dallas-based Panda Energy to purchase a majority interest in the promotion, though Dave has no real specific details on it yet. The question now is, who will be running things? Panda Energy CEO Robert Carter's daughter Dixie Carter runs Trifecta Entertainment, a Nashville-based PR firm that Jerry Jarrett has been using. Dixie put Jarrett in touch with her father and that started negotiations for Panda to purchase stake in the company. Those meetings apparently involved multiple people, including Vince Russo. During a meeting with Panda management last week, Jarrett was informed that Russo has been politicking to take over creative control once the Panda sale goes through and it seems like Panda may indeed be leaning towards Russo over Jarrett. Russo has been telling friends he's confident that once the new owners take over, he'll be in charge of creative. Right now, Russo is pretty much there as a favor to Jeff Jarrett and has almost no power because Jerry Jarrett doesn't allow most of his angles to air. But the reality is, to outsiders who don't know his history, Russo does have an impressive resume. He was the guy booking WWF during their biggest years. Russo has only been allowed to write backstage promos since joining TNA and even those haven't gone well. On the show a couple weeks ago, Syxx, Curt Hennig, and Ron Killings all went against the scripts Russo had written for them (the racial stuff) and said their own things instead. Several other wrestlers have vowed to quit if Russo ends up getting control. Jerry Jarrett seems somewhat resigned to it, feeling he's too old to get into a political fight for control and if Panda picks Russo over him, so be it. So that's where things stand right now.
  • NJPW CEO Seiji Sakaguchi announced that Kensuke Sasaki will be returning to the company later this month. If you recall, Sasaki announced last month that he was quitting the company over disagreements with management (namely for booking him in a shoot match against Minoru Suzuki and then removing him from it and replacing him with Jushin Liger, neither decision he had any say in and wasn't consulted about). However, Sasaki hasn't confirmed that he's returning to NJPW and some think it may just be wishful thinking by Sakaguchi. Within the company, there's mixed feelings on Sasaki. Some realize he's a big name and they need all the help they can get right now. Others aren't happy with Sasaki over how he left and don't want him back. Sasaki also has issues with IWGP champion Yuji Nagata and has made it clear he doesn't want to put him over anymore. Some real Shawn/Bret vibes here.
  • A recent NJPW show saw Yuji Nagata and Masahiro Chono go to a 60-minute time limit draw in a match for the IWGP title. It's only the 2nd time in history that there has been a 60-minute draw for that title. The first was Antonio Inoki vs. Tatsumi Fujinami back in 1988 (to date in 2020, there's only been five total. The aforementioned two matches, Nagata/Nakanishi in 2003, Kojima/Nakamura in 2005, and Omega/Okada in 2017).
  • The NJPW TV show prior to the Tokyo Dome show was all about Bob Sapp and holy shit is it something. They had all these campy skits of Sapp going insane at a zoo. Dave says words can't do justice how goofy this was. He was ripping up posts of Nakanishi, cutting promos on elephants, eating straw and bananas (here's the video, from what appears to be a German bodybuilding website which is the only place I could find it. The video is, well.....it's as advertised).
WATCH: Bob Sapp doing Bob Sapp things at a zoo
  • The promo Curt Hennig cut on TNA this week, where he called DDP "a mark" and talked about taking down Brock Lesnar at 35,000 feet (reference to the Plane Ride from Hell), was all Hennig's doing. A lot of people thought it was Russo, but nope, that was all Hennig. Dave talks about how Hennig has long not particularly cared for DDP. A bunch of the old school wrestlers don't actually, because they remember DDP as the guy from back in the early late-80s AWA days who didn't know anything about the business and they feel like his success later in the 90s was only due to being friends with Bischoff. No doubt his friendship with Bischoff helped, but Dave says the truth is, DDP improved a lot in the ring, turned into a great self-promoter, worked his ass off, and became a bigger star for several years than a lot of the people who hate him. As for the Lesnar line, Dave doesn't comment on that. But from all the Plane Ride From Hell reports at the time, let's just say Hennig's claim about taking Lesnar down ain't exactly how it went.
WATCH: Curt Hennig TNA promo
  • The original plan for WWE's upcoming Survivor Series was a Lesnar vs. Hogan rematch, stemming from the angle where Lesnar injured him. However, Hogan has refused to come back just to put Lesnar over a second time so that match isn't happening. The other two choices were between Big Show and Benoit. And, well, when Vince is desperate, he goes with size. So Lesnar vs. Big Show it is. Benoit obviously would be the better match, but neither match is really a big PPV draw, which kinda shows the lack of depth WWE has right now when it comes to legit main event star-power. They're holding off on Angle/Lesnar for now, and don't really have anyone else credible. They seem to be nudging Lesnar into being a babyface, which means he's likely going to be splitting from Heyman soon (yup). Reportedly, during the creative meeting when they were debating between Big Show or Benoit, Vince was frustrated and called Hogan "selfish" for refusing to do the match.
  • Talk of a Brock LesnaLennox Lewis match has died off. With Lewis having 3 boxing matches lined up next year, plus a big movie deal he just signed, he told WWE he wouldn't be available until at least fall of 2003, which is a lifetime away in wrestling time. So looks like this probably won't be happening.
  • Notes from Raw: opened up with Triple H cutting a never-ending promo about how he escaped the trunk of Kane's car and then made a bunch of necrophilia jokes that got crickets from the crowd, and beat up a blow-up doll corpse. Stacy is managing Test now and they have started calling his fans "Testicles." Randy Orton broke into the show with a RNN (Randy News Network) breaking news update about his shoulder injury recovery. Dave says this is the 2nd week in a row that Orton was the best thing on the show because this was great. They had a storyline going about how Ric Flair wasn't at the show because he was stuck in Charlotte due to bad weather. Triple H called him on the phone and told him he didn't care and wanted him to fly to Raw anyway. So here's the thing: 3 days earlier, Minnesota senator Paul Wellstone and several others died in a plane crash that took off during bad weather. It's pretty much been the top news story in America this week and WWE would have to live in a cave to have not heard about it. Dave doesn't outright accuse them of making reference to that incident, but he also can't fathom how they didn't realize how this would come across. And Kane beat Triple H in a casket match due to Shawn Michaels interference, with Shawn debuting his new little Dutch boy haircut.
  • Notes from next week's Smackdown tapings: it's a Halloween-themed show, with a show-long party going on backstage. John Cena was dressed as Vanilla Ice and was rapping and apparently was really entertaining. Can you imagine that getting over? As if. There was an angle backstage where Eric Bischoff kissed Stephanie McMahon and she ended up liking it. Dave always figured this was the inevitable conclusion of this storyline: Bischoff turns Stephanie against Vince and we get another months long McMahons hating each other storyline, this time with Bischoff thrown in (not quite what happens). Dave recaps the results of the matches but, of course, none of this has aired yet.
  • Mick Foley was scheduled to be on WWE's Byte This internet show, but he canceled at the last minute over the necrophilia angle. Later in the week, he gave a speech at Southern Illinois University and talked about the angle, saying he can't justify or defend it and said if he went on the show, he would have either had to criticize the company on their own show, which he didn't want to do, or he'd have to be dishonest and try to defend it, which he refused to do. So he just didn't go. Otherwise, Foley still doesn't work for WWE and is doing his own thing right now, writing his book and relaxing. He's said he's open to coming out of retirement under the right circumstances.
NEXT WEDNESDAY: Hogan/Vince McMahon issues, in-depth look at the Panda Energy/TNA deal, the final AJPW show of the Baba-era, and more...
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2020.11.10 18:28 RebornInLife Prophecies of the Saturn-Uranus cycle (pattern recognition and prediction)

Prophecies of the Saturn-Uranus cycle (pattern recognition and prediction)
The Saturn Uranus cycle takes about 45 years, with each cycle building on the events of the last. Each alignment within the cycle lasts about 2 years, with an orb of influence fading in and out at either end.
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The most obvious synchronicities of historical events happen at the beginning of the cycle at the conjunction, and then at each hard angle with the squares and the opposition at the peak.

The current Saturn Uranus square is in alignment between 2020 and 2023. The exact aspects between the planets happen in February, June and December 2021, and it’s close again in October 2022 but not exact. This alignment is the final or waning square of the cycle that began in 1988 and ends in 2032.

The Saturn Archetype
The Saturn archetype represents the reality principle and includes our experience of restriction, limitation, structure, boundaries, physical manifestation and time. It’s associated with security and stability, organisation, control, judgement and the law. As well as authority, responsibility, wisdom, tradition and the past, maturity, old age, and death.

Saturn energy is slow, heavy and dense, bringing repression, defeat, failure and endings. But also increased patience, effort, endurance, and concentration, all necessary for building structures that last. As the Lord of Karma, Saturn also represents necessity, harvest, and reaping what you sow. More: Saturn Keywords

Saturn is linked to Kronos, the Titan who castrated Ouranos, and then swallowed his own children. But to the Romans, Saturn ruled over a Golden Age of abundance. For more read: Planet Myths: The Story Behind Saturn

The Uranus Archetype
The Uranus archetype represents the need for freedom and change, and the desire for originality and independence from tradition and the status quo. It’s associated with sudden and unexpected breakdowns and/or breakthroughs, flashes of insight and awakenings, rebellion and revolution.

Uranus energy is unpredictable and electrifying, speeding things up and creating excitement and restlessness. As the Higher octave of Mercury, Uranus stands for the Universal Mind and the Cosmic Trickster. It stimulates innovation and invention in science, aviation, and space travel, as well as individuality, brilliance and genius, and the drive for reform and liberation. But it can also be disruptive, eccentric and defiant. More: Uranus Keywords

Uranus is associated with Ouranos, the sky god and father of Kronos, and with Prometheus, the Titan who stole the fire of the gods to give to mankind and got himself chained to a rock for his trouble. For more read: Planet Myths: The Story Behind Uranus

Saturn Uranus Alignments
From the description of the archetypes we can see that Saturn and Uranus don’t get on. They represent energies that appear to be opposed but they both rule Aquarius in modern astrology (but not in traditional astrology). Alignments between these two represent a collision or meeting between the old and the new – times when change becomes unavoidable.
World Trade Centre after being struck by United Airlines Flight 175
Uranus pushes for freedom and revolution, stirring up chaos and uncertainty, while Saturn seeks to maintain stability through order and control. This can produce extreme tension and crisis within the individual and society. How this plays out depends on which planet has the upper hand: Saturn can bring stability and order, as well as oppression and limitation; and Uranus can disrupt, as well as awaken and liberate.

Saturn Uranus alignments coincide with periods of revolution and political upheaval. There may be sudden breakthroughs and/or breakdowns that lead to the reform of society. Long-term problems are revealed, sometimes through the sudden collapse of systems that need reform and structural change. New structures can be found for revolutionary ideas, and technological innovation brings the potential for progress and the disruption of the status quo.

Common manifestations during these alignments include:

- Sudden financial and economic collapse
- Revolutions, protests, and civil unrest
- Terrorism and radicalisation
- Industrial accidents, and incidents involving aircraft
- Technological breakthroughs and/or disruption
- Political and social breakthroughs to a new order
- Gaining of rights and freedom (or loss)
With the harmonious alignments (trine and sextile) it’s easier to find a balance between the old and the new, and you’re less likely to throw the baby out with the bathwater. The hard alignments can be more challenging and Uranus sometimes goes too far in demanding change that breaks the system.

But equally if Saturn tries to repress the need for change, then Uranus can trigger explosions and violent shocks to the system. There can be unexpected and disproportionate reactions to events, as well as the breakdown of law and order, and situations that get out of control in devastating ways.

The energies of Saturn and Uranus often combine in unpredictable ways. Social reforms may start out with good intentions but can become distorted into ideologies that become authoritarian or totalitarian. There may be a revolutionary uprising followed by a backlash and repression. Or it goes the other way, with authoritarian control that triggers an uprising and resistance, or a mixture of the two.

In Cosmos and Psyche, Richard Tarnas explores the history of Saturn Uranus alignments and says these periods saw:
“the exacerbation of tensions between authority and rebellion, order and freedom, structure and change. Often the two archetypal principles combined and interpenetrated in contradictory ways: repressive revolution, erratically unpredictable authority, and so forth, as evident during the Terror in revolutionary France and the Cultural Revolution in communist China.”

Often the two archetypes get mashed together to produce uncomfortable combinations and contradictory impulses. For example, during the American civil war:

“the slaveholding Confederate states…sought and proclaimed freedom (Uranus) from the Union to maintain their systemically oppressive (Saturn) mode of life.”

Or you end up with revolutionary structures that become repressive and dictatorial, such as in the Bolshevik Revolution in Russia and the Khymer Rouge regime in Cambodia. These ideologies use propaganda to proclaim freedom and liberation while keeping tight control on the citizens’ behaviour and thinking.

Waking up to the reality of the system you live in could be described as a “grim awakening”, in Tarnas’ words – something many people may be feeling now as we enter another period of collapse and disruption.
West and East Germans at the Brandenburg Gate, Berlin 1989
The current cycle started in 1988 with the conjunction in Sagittarius and ends with the conjunction in Gemini in 2032. Some notable events from 1988, plus a few from the surrounding years:

Black Monday stock market crash in 1987
Disarmament talks between US and USSR brought an end to the Cold War
Singing revolution brought independence to Estonia, Latvia and Lithuania
Fall of the Berlin Wall in 1989
Lots of riots, police shootings, and massacres around the world, including the 8888 uprising in Burma where thousands were killed
Tiananmen Square protests were suppressed in China in 1989
Al-Qaeda was formed by Osama bin Laden
Hijack of Kuwait Airways Flight 422, the world’s longest skyjacking
Iran Air Flight 655 was ‘accidentally’ shot down by the US
Another aircraft lost its roof in midair
One of the worst air show disasters in history at Ramstein Air Base in Germany when 3 jets collided and one crashed into the crowd
Lockerbie disaster when Pan Am Flight 103 was blown up over the town in Scotland
Chernobyl disaster when the nuclear reactor core exploded (in 1986 out of orb, but the aftermath lingered)
PEPCON disaster, explosion at industrial solid-fuel rocket plant in Nevada
Piper Alpha oil platform in the North Sea exploded
Ocean Odyssey drilling rig in the North Sea had a blowout and fire
A massive telescope collapsed in Green Bank, West Virginia
NASA resumed Space Shuttle flights with the Discovery
US Air Force revealed the stealth aircraft Lockheed F-117 Nighthawk
The first prototype B-2 Spirit stealth bomber was unveiled
The world’s first high-speed tilting train service started in Italy
Spread of the first well-known internet virus, the Morris Worm
The first transatlantic telephone cable to use optical fibres was completed for internet use
The first open election in a decade in Pakistan elected Benazir Bhutto, the first woman PM of an Islam-dominated state
That alignment was pretty paradigmatic for Saturn Uranus. For context, here are some examples from previous alignments – the dates in brackets are when the exact transits occurred:

Opposition 1917-21 (1918-20) – Spanish flu pandemic, end of First World War, Bolshevik Revolution and Russian civil war, formation of the League of Nations in 1920, first woman in UK parliament, and women won the right to vote in US.

Square 1928-33 (1929-32) – also with Saturn Pluto opposition and Uranus Pluto square (similar to what we’re experiencing now). Wall Street crash in 1929 led to the Great Depression and record levels of unemployment, which triggered the New Deal in 1933. Establishment of the Third Reich and rise of Hitler in 1933 when Saturn entered Aquarius.
A bank run early in the Great Depression
Conjunction 1940-43 (1941-42) – also with Saturn Pluto square. Start of a new cycle that saw the rise of the US and Russia, and the end of the British empire, plus the start of globalism. Stalin became Soviet premier in 1941. Pearl Harbour attack triggered US to enter Second World War, and in 1942 the Nazi’s implemented their ‘final solution’ in the Holocaust. The UN was drafted by Roosevelt in 1941 and declared in 1942, although it didn’t officially start until 1945.

Opposition 1963-68 (1964-67) – also with Uranus Pluto conjunction and Saturn Pluto opposition. Vietnam war and mass protests, rise of civil rights movement and women’s liberation, lots of riots and civil unrest, counterculture revolution. UN condemned apartheid in South Africa and imposed sanctions. Mao started Cultural Revolution in China leading to death of millions. Soviet Luna 9 probe landed on the Moon.

Square 1974-78 (1975-77) – in Cambodia Pol Pot led the Khymer Rouge in a socialist revolution that killed millions. Worst airplane disaster in history in Tenerife. First soft landing on Mars.

Conjunction 1986-90 (1988) – see above

Square 1998-2001 (1999-2000) – also with Saturn Pluto opposition. World Trade Centre collapsed when two hijacked planes flew into the buildings, leading to the introduction of the Patriot Act in US, and the so-called War on Terror. Millennium bug scare that turned out to be a big nothing burger.

Opposition 2007-12 (2008-10) – also with Saturn Pluto square. Peak of the cycle that started in 1988. Credit Crunch economic crash. Obama elected as first black president of US. Tories returned to power in UK and began 10 years of austerity and underfunding of NHS and social care – now exacerbating the COVID-19 crisis.

Interesting aside: the trine alignment between Saturn and Uranus in 2016-18 coincided with the election of Trump as president in the US, and the Brexit referendum in the UK that led to Britain leaving the EU.

Square 2020-23 (2021-22) – also with Saturn Pluto conjunction. Now!

Conjunction 2031-33 (2032) – end of the current cycle and start of a new one.
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2020.11.09 21:05 subreddit_stats Subreddit Stats: For_Slavs top posts from 2018-12-21 to 2020-11-09 13:11 PDT

Period: 688.98 days
Submissions Comments
Total 1000 17802
Rate (per day) 1.45 25.83
Unique Redditors 199 1252
Combined Score 49154 68363

Top Submitters' Top Submissions

  1. 4057 points, 73 submissions: BeryAb
    1. Just a meme, nothing too serious. (219 points, 69 comments)
    2. The truth about Crimea (160 points, 25 comments)
    3. Well boys, we did it. Name disputes are no more. (152 points, 15 comments)
    4. This sub is like Ancient Greece. There is almost always infighting, but once a foreign threat emerges... (131 points, 19 comments)
    5. Thought you Slavs would find this just as terrible as I do... (119 points, 46 comments)
    6. The real reason why most of us are on this sub (113 points, 28 comments)
    7. Yeah dude, I support DOIDLD TJATSMR, how could you tell? (103 points, 16 comments)
    8. Germanic influence on Slovene (99 points, 17 comments)
    9. The new PS5 in Eastern Europe (96 points, 5 comments)
    10. Happy Easter from me as well. (92 points, 11 comments)
  2. 3652 points, 75 submissions: TheGameMaster11
    1. This might anger Pro-EU folk, but we all have to agree that they are pushing hard for more "inclusive" marriage and child laws in Europe (165 points, 138 comments)
    2. Based Serbia and Romania not subscribing to the stereotype that all Balkan countries hate each other (151 points, 80 comments)
    3. It's true, if i wanted a doll i'd buy a blowup one (150 points, 33 comments)
    4. Bulgaria's so innocent awww (130 points, 121 comments)
    5. Just a little meme poster, hoping to inspire people to grow and teach their culture to what will hopefully be many healthy Slavic children (I could've included more Slavs, but i just had the chad heads for these 3) (110 points, 32 comments)
    6. What flags can foreigners fly in Serbia and not get stabbed? (108 points, 73 comments)
    7. History of the double-headed eagle in Europe (97 points, 20 comments)
    8. Anti-Communist Action Serbian flag (96 points, 17 comments)
    9. I compiled all three of Wikipedia's Slavic language maps to create one giant Slavic language family map (90 points, 10 comments)
    10. Wholesome Slavic memes for a Thursday morning (85 points, 22 comments)
  3. 3008 points, 39 submissions: Desh282
    1. My Slavic daughter was born today (187 points, 28 comments)
    2. Apologies if this had been posted already (174 points, 30 comments)
    3. Slav Doomer life (169 points, 85 comments)
    4. Had to repost this (143 points, 6 comments)
    5. So fortunate to be married to a Slav wife (134 points, 19 comments)
    6. Based Poles (129 points, 10 comments)
    7. Man in Ukraine restores Kazak Church (scroll right) (124 points, 9 comments)
    8. Sorry guys but I couldn’t resist (124 points, 26 comments)
    9. Slavic Heaven (112 points, 19 comments)
    10. You guys think Western Europe became so successful because east Europe took most of the brunt of problems? (109 points, 16 comments)
  4. 2620 points, 41 submissions: DuleGlavic
    1. Found on ig (211 points, 12 comments)
    2. Cant remember where I found this (193 points, 11 comments)
    3. Greeks protecting Serbian monastery from Albanian terrorists 2007 (134 points, 14 comments)
    4. Churches in Poland found on ig (132 points, 9 comments)
    5. A Serbian soldier sleeps with his father who came to visit him on the front line near Belgrade, 1914/1915 (100 points, 3 comments)
    6. Lets not forget about 5 months ago Dubai celebrated whith Serbs Statehood Day (95 points, 9 comments)
    7. Congrats to Boris Malagurski we got 200 k signatures to keep Kosovo as Serbia on apple maps that's 50k more than the opposing side (92 points, 19 comments)
    8. 100 years later we have little shitheads running around yelling ide gas (90 points, 10 comments)
    9. This is how our brothers Montenegrins greeted us after Montenegro finally opened borders with us (90 points, 30 comments)
    10. Found on ig (87 points, 2 comments)
  5. 2349 points, 40 submissions: Slavicpride14
    1. 😂😂😂 (168 points, 46 comments)
    2. 12 year old Polish girl was murdered by migrants in Sweden. White lives matter (152 points, 53 comments)
    3. Today 100 years ago the battle of the Vistula started, when Poles defeated the invading Bolsheviks commanded by Lev Bronstein & saved Poland from communism (121 points, 47 comments)
    4. Reddit moment (114 points, 17 comments)
    5. The courts in Slavic countries are controlled by radical leftists (104 points, 44 comments)
    6. Truth (103 points, 102 comments)
    7. How can a person be this brainwashed? (101 points, 45 comments)
    8. Average Western leftist (91 points, 90 comments)
    9. Poland being based (90 points, 25 comments)
    10. Don’t let them do the same thing to Belarus (88 points, 49 comments)
  6. 2266 points, 35 submissions: pravdasvk
    1. Czechs at it again: "decent people" movement with slogan "Police is not to blame for you fucking up your lives" (194 points, 26 comments)
    2. 2020 is never so bad it can't get worse (148 points, 17 comments)
    3. Bratislava, Slovakia, bridge over Danube (122 points, 47 comments)
    4. "Tradition vs Progress" (120 points, 39 comments)
    5. Naughty kids (119 points, 19 comments)
    6. How US news would put it (117 points, 4 comments)
    7. All that war talk must be tiring, have anime girl instead. (101 points, 10 comments)
    8. Found on 9gag (91 points, 8 comments)
    9. Czech president calls BLM slogan racist after the EU Parliament strongly backed them and urged countries to embrace its aims (84 points, 18 comments)
    10. Meanwhile in Hungary (80 points, 21 comments)
  7. 1453 points, 54 submissions: Hriste-Lukov
    1. NPC’s/SJW’s trying to understand Slavs (94 points, 47 comments)
    2. Slavs are against sodomy (66 points, 54 comments)
    3. This is what they want Poland to look like in the future. (66 points, 29 comments)
    4. Russian proverb (55 points, 12 comments)
    5. Polish poster killing Bolsheviks, 1920 (52 points, 0 comments)
    6. Polish poster against Judeo-Bolshevism, 1920 (38 points, 56 comments)
    7. How South Slavs see each other (36 points, 3 comments)
    8. Bulgarians keep painting over & mocking Communist monument (33 points, 37 comments)
    9. Communism is gay (33 points, 2 comments)
    10. Warsaw uprising commemoration (33 points, 125 comments)
  8. 1316 points, 25 submissions: bugarski14
    1. SJW’S trying to understand Slavs (167 points, 77 comments)
    2. 1k members (96 points, 0 comments)
    3. Chad Todor Zhivkov VS virgin Western SJW (88 points, 8 comments)
    4. Lukašenko being based (74 points, 31 comments)
    5. Every. Single. Time. (72 points, 5 comments)
    6. Russians being based (71 points, 15 comments)
    7. Albanian Nationalists have to pretend they aren’t Albanian when they hate on Slavs because they are embarrassed of their own country (60 points, 26 comments)
    8. Erdogan thinks he’s a Sultan (53 points, 5 comments)
    9. Most based political party in each Slavic country (52 points, 71 comments)
    10. The invaders fear us :D (52 points, 9 comments)
  9. 1206 points, 27 submissions: kosovskabitka1389
    1. This is what leftists do to our culture (281 points, 47 comments)
    2. It is much better then modern clothes (102 points, 16 comments)
    3. Communists denying the Holodomor (51 points, 9 comments)
    4. Macedonian troops (2001) on their way to fight Šiptar terrorist scum. (49 points, 5 comments)
    5. SJW thinks all Russians should be banned from the internet and thinks Russia should be blockaded to cause a famine (44 points, 6 comments)
    6. 50,000 people protesting in Podgorica against the anti-Christian western puppet government (43 points, 29 comments)
    7. Macedonian tanks going to fight Šiptars (2001) (41 points, 2 comments)
    8. Serbs stand with Greece against the Muslim invasion of Europe (41 points, 65 comments)
    9. Based Croats (39 points, 8 comments)
    10. Socialist dictator in Macedonia sold the water in Lake Mavrovo to an Albanian company linked to organised crime (39 points, 39 comments)
  10. 1133 points, 14 submissions: Vedroops
    1. Took me a while, but I made an image depicting almost all of the Slavic tribes ever, and their related symbolism. (221 points, 56 comments)
    2. Dua Lipa just posted a photo of greater Albania on her profile, managing to directly insult 4 nations the territory infringes upon, and many more. This is hilarious. (166 points, 101 comments)
    3. Serbs and Croats turn back time (148 points, 25 comments)
    4. Legendary Croatian Pan-Slavic beer commercial. (112 points, 29 comments)
    5. Members of the "Perunova Svetinja" - Croatian Rodnovery community that are involved with promoting traditional lifestyle and promoting old Slavic culture. (85 points, 23 comments)
    6. Hum - The smallest city in Croatia, and the world (61 points, 12 comments)
    7. On this date 1939. the Cvetković-Maček agreement was signed, forming the Banovina of Croatia. It, until WWII, opened a brief window for future Croatian and Serbian peaceful coexistence. Maček, the Croat that ratified the agreement was imprisoned in C.C. Jasenovac by the Ustaše two years later. (61 points, 8 comments)
    8. On this day the 1st of July 1991. Josip Reihl-Kir was murdered. He was a police major from Osijek and a succesful spokesperson of peace between men. "As long as I am the mayor of the administration of Osijek-Baranja, there will be no war between a Croat and Serb." (56 points, 6 comments)
    9. Can I get a bruh moment? (51 points, 13 comments)
    10. Croatian election debate was wild (44 points, 13 comments)
  11. 1100 points, 16 submissions: TsarNikolai2
    1. This is actually true, as they actually do believe that. (152 points, 66 comments)
    2. This is very accurate and true (135 points, 26 comments)
    3. I saw this meme circulating around somewhere. (130 points, 12 comments)
    4. This is the difference between Slavic culture and Western Culture. (96 points, 38 comments)
    5. Here is the modification of the meme I posted earlier. (95 points, 37 comments)
    6. I don't see any friendship between Russia and Ukraine ever happening, at least anytime soon. (80 points, 99 comments)
    7. I think they'd rather ignore it. (76 points, 17 comments)
    8. Is this correct? (60 points, 8 comments)
    9. This is a visualization of Slavic glory. Additionally, this includes all Slavs, considering how the only Slavic nation on this game is Россия. (58 points, 14 comments)
    10. I found this on 2Balkan4You. What do you Serbs think of this? (50 points, 23 comments)
  12. 1059 points, 18 submissions: 40gramovmuky
    1. It do be like that... (172 points, 4 comments)
    2. From antihatecommunities discord, i have no words. (132 points, 46 comments)
    3. True words made by a wise man. (115 points, 116 comments)
    4. Found on Slovakia, had to use it. (113 points, 52 comments)
    5. Found this under duashita post about Greater Albania... (76 points, 17 comments)
    6. Guy was tweeting how he is trapped in Slovakia, said it is not hellhole what American movies show but said that its bad here, asked what is bad about our country. She answered with my profile bio. I am asking. Why? What is the context of my profile with that discussion? (66 points, 21 comments)
    7. Today, 79 years ago, German soldiers have massacered 2,794 Serbs in Kragujevac massacre. God is now protecting their souls 🙏🏽 (60 points, 19 comments)
    8. Antifa is not terrorist! They are peaceful and not agressive! You are just fucking racist and xenophobe! - Some person reacting to my comment how I meantioned antifa being a terrorist organization. (50 points, 13 comments)
    9. “We are more celtic/germanic than slavic!” “If Hitler won! We would be in a better place!” - Idiot on Slovakia thinks that we have nothing to do with slavic culture. Only thing that he is right with is that gopniks are shit and have nothing to do with slavic culture. (47 points, 51 comments)
    10. In her 90s, Czech woman Anežka Kašpárková passes time by painting on buildings in the village of Louka (45 points, 3 comments)
  13. 1021 points, 37 submissions: mountaintribesman
    1. Slavic politics (103 points, 6 comments)
    2. Trying to get freed from the Ottoman Empire (66 points, 9 comments)
    3. Populations of Slavic countries in the next 100 years (50 points, 54 comments)
    4. Political Positions of 20th century Slavic leaders (40 points, 48 comments)
    5. Decline of the Sorbs (38 points, 19 comments)
    6. More snowflakes crying in their echo chambers about this subreddit. (35 points, 10 comments)
    7. People celebrating their countries freedom in Slovakia (33 points, 3 comments)
    8. Celebrating independence (32 points, 0 comments)
    9. ... (31 points, 1 comment)
    10. Polish cities in a nutshell (29 points, 4 comments)
  14. 1016 points, 18 submissions: patriotic-bulgarian
    1. Demographics & views of For_Slavs (107 points, 94 comments)
    2. Western leftists vs Slavs (106 points, 31 comments)
    3. When leftists say they are “anti-imperialist” they mean they are anti white. They love Muslim imperialism against Slavic Christians. (97 points, 86 comments)
    4. Average Western Leftist (85 points, 23 comments)
    5. wtf is this abomination in my country? (85 points, 36 comments)
    6. SJW who hates the Slavic people calls us “primitive” like animals (79 points, 52 comments)
    7. Self hating western leftists VS based us (60 points, 35 comments)
    8. Western SJW thinks Slavs are “primitive and retarded” and defends Bolshevism (55 points, 21 comments)
    9. The Communist troll on this sub who claims he is “Russian” speaks Albanian (53 points, 88 comments)
    10. Western leftists hate Slavs almost as much as Albanians hate us (48 points, 39 comments)
  15. 1008 points, 35 submissions: SlobodantheSerb
    1. Spot the odd one out (86 points, 7 comments)
    2. This photo belongs here (69 points, 2 comments)
    3. We must increase the Slavic Birth Rate (59 points, 12 comments)
    4. Polish man removes Kebab terrorist with animal bone (54 points, 2 comments)
    5. Protests in Montenegro against the persecution of Serbian Orthodox Christians (48 points, 33 comments)
    6. People 100 years ago thought Serbia would look like this now. Unfortunately it doesn’t :( (42 points, 7 comments)
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2020.11.07 12:16 EndersGame_Reviewer An Introduction to Playing Cards and Collecting by Two Veteran Collectors

An Introduction to Playing Cards and Collecting by Two Veteran Collectors
Who are Tom and Judy Dawson?
Once in a while, while traversing the wilds of the internet, you unexpectedly come across an outstanding resource. That's exactly what happened to me when I came across a fantastic video featuring playing card collectors Tom and Judy Dawson, where they talk about playing cards as part of a 40 minute interview.
Before I show you the video, you need to know a thing or two about Tom and Judy, who hail from Toronto, Canada. They are not your every-day playing card collectors. Tom was a former President of 52 Plus Joker, the American Playing Card Collectors Club, and was an active member until his sad passing away in 2016. At the time, they had the unique distinction of being the only members who had attended all 29 conventions up to that point, and Judy was editor of their newsletter for some 28 years. She remains involved on an executive level, and the club's official website designates her as "Club Queen".

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They can rightly be considered experts in their field, and their credentials as authorities on the subject of playing cards is confirmed by an important work they co-authored and completed: Gene Hochman's authoritative Hochman Encyclopedia of American Playing Cards. This four volume set of books was originally the creation of respected collector Gene Hochman, and was first published between 1976-1981. Very few people would have sufficient knowledge and expertise to revise and expand a work of this sort, but that's exactly what Tom and Judy Dawson did with this impressive series of keystone books.
With a main focus is on American playing cards, as the title indicates, it is a comprehensive guide to various decks of playing cards that were produced in the United States from the late 18th century onwards. As part of its catalogue it includes important information on scarcity, and besides covering individual decks it also covers different producers and brands. For serious collectors, it's an essential reference tool. Lee Asher, the current president of 52 Plus Joker, offers this glowing praise for this book: "This is the best resource on collecting American playing cards, ever written. They took all of long-time collector Eugene Hochman's research, and compiled it into one big volume."

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In 2013, Ben Train interviewed Tom and Judy about playing cards, as part of Chris Mayhew's "Series of Unfortunate Effects". In this interview, Tom and Judy share some valuable information about the history of playing cards, different ways that they are used, as well as advice about being a collector, and much more. It was made available online by the current president of 52 Plus Joker, Lee Asher. The video is 38 minutes long, and I highly recommend watching it in entirety. In the material below, I've summarized some key things that you'll learn from this interview, and share some of the material that these two passionate playing card collectors cover.
THE INTERVIEW
First of all, here is the link where you can watch the full interview:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nOrkv8chxvw
History of Playing Cards
The interview starts with Tom giving a broad overview of the history and development of playing cards. While we can't be certain of their true origins, this is likely in the Far East, possibly as an easier and cheaper way of playing chess-style war games. From here they eventually made their way through the Middle East and North Africa into Western Europe, and that's where the first definite record of playing cards can be found in the late 1300s. Italians, French, and Spanish playing cards weren't standardized like today, but used suits with a variety of symbols such as clubs, swords, and bells, and also had varying numbers of cards in a deck. The French were especially renowned for their playing card manufacturers, and today's playing cards are largely based on old French designs.
The backs of playing cards were originally blank, but over time things were added like images on the card backs, corner indices, double ended artwork for the court cards, and coatings on the paper. Playing cards were at one time called "pasteboards", and were originally thick and bulky. But improvements in manufacturing led to thinner playing cards, with improved quality and handling.
Prior to the adoption of indices, one manufacturer used miniature pictures of the card on opposite corners, which were called "Triplicates", and the indices we use today were developed in competition to these, and were first described as "Squeezers" in light of the ability to hold a larger hand of cards.
I was especially fascinated by Tom Dawson's observation that although many people have tried to introduce innovations to playing cards, these never last, and the traditional style and designs always return. Evidently there is something truly "classic" about the deck we have inherited today!

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Uses for Playing Cards
In this section of the interview, Tom and Judy share some of the fascinating ways playing cards have been used throughout their history, besides more obvious uses like card magic, and for playing the thousands of card games that exist. But even decks used for card games come in different sizes, e.g. containing 32 cards, or 40, 48, 52, and even 78 or more. So a deck of cards can mean a lot of different things, and many of the games played with them are very regional.
Playing cards have been used very seriously for fortune telling, sometimes with individual cards having fortune information on them. Tarot decks typically have 78 cards, and each of the 22 trumps in these decks has a different picture and is assigned a different meaning. While such decks are sometimes used for the occult, many of them do have fantastic designs and artwork. This makes them very collectable, and even Tarot decks that are barely 20 years old can be worth large sums.
Playing cards were also used for educational purposes (e.g. to teach math, science and more). Souvenir decks have been popular, because they have a picture on each individual card. When these started being produced in the 1890s, photography was still quite new and expensive, so a souvenir deck functioned as a nice miniature photo album.
Because cards originally had plain white backs, they proved useful for note-taking, indexing, invitations, coupons, IOUs, and more, especially in a time when paper and cardboard was rare and expensive. Besides these secondary uses, there was even a time in the 1700s in Quebec when they were used as money cards.
There are also people who build enormous card houses with playing cards, made out of hundreds of decks of cards. Brian Berg is well worth looking up given some of the unbelievable things he has made out of playing cards.

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Card Boxes
In today's market, some publishers like Theory11 devote a lot of attention to producing high end tuck boxes, and it is a big part of the marketing. While today's techniques may be new, the idea of an attractive tuck box is not new, and throughout the history of playing cards there have been manufacturers doing interesting things with the card boxes.
Tom explains that originally playing cards were just packaged in relatively plain paper wrappers, and there was no box at all. As the 1800s progressed, wrappers made way for something more sturdy, which led to the development of all kinds of boxes. Various interesting packaging was used, including boxes that had outer and inner cases, and small drawers. Congress Playing Cards used a packaging that would display the designs of the deck on the outside of the box. I really enjoyed seeing some of the unique ideas for packaging that Tom and Judy showed in this part of the video. One of my favourites that they displayed was a beautiful war deck from 1935 that was housed inside a book!
After showing a lovely custom wooden box for the Circus Transformation Deck that was produced in 1988, Judy explains what transformation decks are, showing some example cards. In transformation decks, the pip cards are transformed into a design, by using the pips as part of the picture. I immediately felt a sense of kinship with the Dawsons at this point, because apparently transformation decks are a favourite for them, just as they are for me.

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Collecting Cards
Tom and Judy decided to focus their own collection on standard playing cards (i.e. those with a traditional layout and traditional court cards), primarily older cards that are American in origin. It's not that they don't like custom decks, but the simple matter is that if you're collecting anything you need to specialize in some way and have a focus.
Tom gives an extensive list of different kinds of cards that are available to collect, including comic cards, tobacco insert cards, advertising cards, transformation cards, and war cards. All the wars have been commemorated in playing cards, as are many births and other important events in the lives of royalty. Judy puts it well: "You can actually create a whole history from playing cards." She's absolutely right, and in that respect playing cards are a mirror of life.
Besides people who collect decks, there are also those who only collect single cards. This is usually due to their interest in the card backs, and they might specialize in backs on a particular topic like horses or landscapes. But there also people who only collect a particular card, like a Joker, or the Ace of Spades, in light of its special design and the name of the maker, effectively making it like the title page of a book. Judy considers collectors of Jokers the bane of other collectors, because these are one of the most prized parts of a deck, and a deck that is otherwise complete but missing an unusual Joker drops significantly in value.
The condition of your cards is also important, and this is something Tom and Judy know more than a thing or two about, not just from their own experience, but also as authors of the Hochman book. Obviously the less used a deck is, the more valuable it is. Judy also makes some very good remarks about how a modern deck that is purchased and preserved won't nearly have the same value as an older deck that is preserved. There are plenty of collectors today who have limited edition versions of modern decks, while in contrast vintage playing cards are much more scarce since they were typically bought in order to be used rather than collected. This is one reason the Dawson's own interest is especially in old decks, or decks that were only produced in extremely limited editions (e.g. only 50 produced).
Tom points out that a nice aspect about collecting playing cards is that you get the opportunity to do research and learn about your decks. There's a lot of great books that can assist with this. There are also playing card clubs like 52 Plus Joker, and similar clubs in other countries, so there's a lot of good resources available.

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Show and Tell
In the final ten minutes or so of the video, Tom and Judy show us a range of different playing cards to illustrate some of the things they've covered. One deck shown is extremely scarce, with only 50 made. There's even an example of a valuable deck of which only seven total were made; Tom and Judy believe that these decks were withdrawn before going up for sale. You'll also see a card from a deck published in 1950, where the entire deck would be worth $15,000, and you'll see a single card picturing a baseball hall-of-famer that on its own is worth up to $1500.
As well as a range of historic Aces of Spades, a range of old Jokers is also shown, many from different advertising decks. Decks that advertise famous companies like Coca Cola are even more prized, since there are so many collectors of Coca Cola memorabilia around the world. Tobacco insert cards often featured lively burlesque artwork, and because they were released individually, people had to collect these decks one card at a time, making a complete deck of these even more prized. A charming music-themed German deck from around 1850 has cards with spectacular designs that can be placed alongside each other to produce a complete piece of music. You'll even see a card from one of the 1805 Cotta transformation decks, and some other terrific examples of cards from old transformation decks.

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CONCLUSION
Impressions
Tom and Judy's passion for playing cards really shines through in this wonderful interview. From how comfortable they are with the subject material, it's very evident that they are experts who are extremely knowledgeable. They were obviously a great team, and extremely respectful of each other, giving each other opportunity to share from their wealth of knowledge.
Given that the focus of their own collection is on older standard playing cards, not everything they say applies to modern custom decks. Even so, there's still a lot that can be learned from what they have to say, and my own knowledge about collecting playing cards was enhanced by learning about an area that I don't have as much first-hand experience with myself. I also really enjoyed the opportunity to see some rare decks from the early 1900s and some playing cards that even hailed from the 1800s.
I highly recommend that playing card enthusiasts take the time to watch the whole video, and learn from this lovely couple, who are keen to inspire others in the wonderful hobby of collecting playing cards.
Where next?
With their dedication and enthusiasm as collectors, Tom and Judy have left a legacy for us all. Not only can we benefit from the Hochman Encyclopedia they helped write, but we can also continue their passion for playing cards. Especially if you are a serious collector with an interest in American playing cards, here's what you can do next:
Get the book: If American playing cards are your thing, the Hochman Encyclopedia co-authored by the Dawsons is a must have. It also contains helpful information about grading and dating playing cards. If you're interested in learning more about this, Tom explains the grading system they use in a separate interview clip that you can listen to here. Lee Asher also has two excellent articles which I highly recommend in relation to this. The first is about How to date a deck of USPCC playing cards, and the second is about How to grade playing cards. The grading scale that he presents there is taken straight from the Hochman Encyclopedia, and gives descriptions for how to grade a deck of cards into one of the following categories, on a sliding scale: As Issued, Mint, Excellent, Good, Poor, and With Faults.
Join the club: The 52 Plus Joker Club has been around since 1985, and was originally created to meet the needs of American collectors of antique playing cards. The scope has since broadened, and what they offer today includes things like a printed and digital club magazine, an annual club deck, and playing card auctions. The highlight of 52 Plus Joker is undoubtedly the club's annual convention in October, which is where collectors, designers, manufacturers, and enthusiasts come together to talk about playing cards, listen to lectures, buy and sell, receive awards, and much more. The Dawson Award is one of the awards given, and is a special achievement award named after Tom and Judy.
Go to the convention: Attending the annual 52 Plus Joker convention is a highlight for playing card enthusiasts, although in 2020 the convention was held online using video conferencing, due to current COVID-19 restrictions. Check out the Convention page to find out more.
Want to learn more? Visit 52 Plus Joker, the American Playing Card Collectors Club. ● Official links: Official website, Conventions, Instagram, Facebook ● Interviews: Lee Asher (President), Don Boyer (Vice-President)
Author's note: I first published this article at PlayingCardDecks here.
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2020.11.06 09:14 MoozeRiver What brands roll well?

I know a lot of you are collectors with the intent of presenting nice looking cars on a shelf, but I know I’m not the only one who races them. It can be hard to find info about how well different brands perform so here's some help.
Thought I’d present to you my findings from the last 30+ years that me and my brother have been doing this (yes, we both have forgiving wifes and enthustiastic children). If you guys have any thoughts on other brands, feel free to share. It’s worth keeping in mind that some cars will perform better on different surfaces. The difference between Hot Wheels and Majorette tracks can be enormous for certain brands.
This list is for fresh out of the pack cars. I regularly buy cars from the 80’s and 90’s (and sometimes 70’s) unopened just to explore how they perform when new.
Tier 1 (only one brand)
Hot Wheels
Though the quality is getting worse (especially in late 2010's regular singles) Hot Wheels is without a doubt the best brand if you're looking for winners. Look for the singles dated 2003-2009 with a metal base for the result. Have had very good results with 80's and early 90's too, but they are getting a little expensive when the result isn’t always great. If you want to buy great Hot Wheels on budget with low risk, buy the 5-packs made in Indonesia. Hot Wheels are
Tier 2
Matchbox
Don’t trick yourself thinking that new Matchbox cars from the last 25 years are going to be the solution to your friends Hot Wheels team. Since Mattel bought Matchbox they have gradually become worse in both build quality and rolling ability. I have a 62 Corvette from 1994 that does really well but other than that I’ve yet to find a new Matchbox to compete in the top since the mid 80’s. That’s why buying Matchbox gets expensive. If you want a new Matchbox from the 70’s or 80’s you’re going to have to pay up. A new 70’s Matchbox will however outperform most 2010’s Hot Wheels. Also, you can find used 40 year old Matchbox that still perform admirably, amazing build quality by Lesney!
Johnny Lightning
I’m still exploring this brand. The sheer amount of rubber wheels in JL makes them hard to evaluate. Generally, look for the 90’s Wacky Winners segment. Exposed axel that will not last for as long as a Hot Wheels car but they can roll really well. If you guys know of JL from the last 20 years that perform well at high speeds, I’d love to hear it because I’ve spent way more than I wanted to on “garbage” by now.
Zuru
So here’s an unknown brand to many. Zuru is a new Chinese brand that looks great and feels really really terrible fresh out of the pack. Don’t be fooled, they are amazing rollers. Especially first generation Zurus (2018), they can beat any same year Hot Wheels. Problem is they only last about 50 times rolling, then they start losing speed/distance. Buy these for short term success!
Carousel
Bought at Tesco in the UK. Same non-quality feel as Zuru, without the nice look. Have yet to try them enough to know about their future ability but these have been among the best cars I’ve tried in 2020. You can probably find them online at eBay or Amazon if you’re not in the UK (which I’m not).
Tier 3
(we’re now getting to the “wont win but still rolls well”-segment)
Corgi
Look for 70-80’s Corgi and Corgi Juniors. Not as expensive out of the pack as old Hot Wheels and Matchbox. Roll well, but generally has a plastic base (there are exceptions) so can’t gain as much speed
Majorette
Make sure you get the French ones, the Thailand ones from the 90’s are generally worse. Perform well on Majorette tracks but keep track of their width, many Majorette cars will not even fit on a Hot Wheels track or similar.
Racing Champions
This can be a crapshoot! Obviously stay away from the ones with rubber wheels, but the ones with plastic wheels are often very low quality. I've only ever had success with the themed 5-packs.
Nerf
Nerf has actual toy cars, and they are not bad at rolling by any means. They do incredibly well on Majorette tracks and tracks with turns where the track is not fastened to the ground because their low weight tends to keep the track more stable at high speeds.
Lintoy
If you can afford it, Lintoy is a fairly unknown 70-80’s brand that is mostly known for making airplanes. They also made a few cars but they are REALLY expensive if you want one in mint condition and I still can’t promise they’ll be as good as the two I have.
Tomica Premium
Make sure you buy the Premium ones, otherwise you’re wasting your money if your plan is to race them. Obviously they look good, but they also roll well. You will NEVER beat Hot Wheels with a Tomica but if you want to have a competition with cars from this decade without Hot Wheels this is a not a bad move.
Tier 4
(brands that will get your friends attention but you will never be top10 with any of these)
Tomica
Regular Tomica are still fun to race with, but they are not as good as the Premium range, and definitely no Hot Wheels.
Kenner
Ohio brand that tried to compete with Hot Wheels in the 80’s. Look for the “Fast 111’s” line. “Classic” lightweight feeling but still a fun addition.
Dickie Toys
German brand with the focus on small children. Cars still role pretty well!
Siku
Classic German brand with cars are almost always too big for Hot Wheels tracks. Get the old cars, the new ones are terrible.
Polfi
Greek brand from the 70-80’s that role on par with Siku and Kenner. Heavy high quality build but maybe not always so fun to look at.
Tier 5
There are lots of other brands that you may find scattered over the internet and at second hand stores. These will not outperform anyone but can be nice if you want to add more brands to your collection.
Adventure Force
Bburago
Faller
Fast Lane
Lledo
Maisto
MC Toy
MotorMax
Motorsports Authentics
Playart
Polistil/Politoys
Realtoy
RMZ City
Teamsterz
Tonka
Welly
Yatming
Zee Toys/Zylmex
There are also many collector brands (Autoworld, Jada Toys etc.) out there but they tend to be absolutely awful when racing them. If you know of any exceptions, let me know!
Anyway, this is not a complete list of brands but more of a list of all the brands I've tried over the last 30-35 years. If you don't agree with me, or have other experiences, feel free to share. Reddit tends to show up well in Google searches so maybe we will help others looking for the same thing.
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IDM+ features:
General:
• Ad free • Download Torrent files using magnet link torrent url or a torrent file on your device • Dark and Light themes • Supported languages: Chinese(Traditional) Chinese(Simplified) Czech Español Español(Latin America) French German Greek Italiano Indonesian Japanese Korean Magyar Português Português(Brazil) Русский Polish Slovak Serbian Türkçe العربية Afrikaans • Direct Download to SD card • Supports HTTP Live Streaming websites • Hide downloaded files from everyone • Smart download option to download files when you copy downloadable links to clipboard • Option to save user name password for auto login while browsing and downloading from password protected sites • Pause and Resume feature with supported links • Pause all / Start all / Remove all options to save time • Unlimited retry support with custom delay • Download are not stopped if app is closed • Wifi only download support • Smart error handling so you don't loose any data • Download scheduler to schedule your downloads • Import download links from a text file • Export download links • Import download link from clipboard • Open/Share downloaded files • Extended Notifications with download progress (Combined as well as individual) • Supports vibration and notification sound on download completion • Supports all formats: archive files MUSIC VIDEO documents programs etc • Support multiple web browsers including: Default Android browser Chrome Firefox etc • Sort files by name size date and categorize by types and time
Advanced:
• Upto 5 simultaneous downloads • Multi part downloading - upto 32 simultaneous parts per download • Support for proxies (with or without authentication) • Speed limiter to limit speed of downloads (Global as well as individual) • Refresh expired links (Direct or using inbuilt browser) • Download password protected files • Calculate MD5 checksum
Additional:
• Built-in web browser with support for multiple tabs history and bookmarks • Incognito browsing mode • Download by automatically catching links of MUSIC/VIDEO from your favorite websites
Please note that DOWNLOADING FROM YOUTUBE IS NOT SUPPORTED due to their terms of service
Clarification for Access Permissions:
• Network Connection (Internet Access) is for downloading file • Storage (modify or delete contents on your USB storage) is for storing downloaded data • Control Vibration: create vibrating effect for necessary notification • Wake lock to stop device from going into sleep mode while downloading is in progress
Disclaimer: Downloading and viewing of any file protected by copyright is prohibited and regulated by the laws of the country where you live. We assume no responsibility for any misuse of our App.
If you like the app please rate 5 star :)
Google Play: Link
Mod Info: Unlocked full version • No LP or Google Play Modded needed • Disabled / Removed unwanted Permissions + Receivers and Services • Analytics / Crashlytics disabled.
ReleaseAPK
Changelog: Fixed: Download capture issue from supported browsers
VirusTotal: ARM7 ARM8
Download: ARM7 ARM8
Fyi: Install IDM+ 12.3 [Patched] over top 12.2 [Patched].
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2020.10.31 21:29 LeSipdero The extremes of social isolation.

Well over 5 years since my new life began. Ever since I moved to a new country, Germany to be specific. I never thought of it as me losing something back then.. At the time as my first life slowly collapsed, I thought this to be a new beginning. I was so excited, I never traveled that much, yet here I am moving to a new place while unknowningly losing everything so dear to me. I thought I'll make new friends, new experiences, new school and a new life. I'll have a step father that will love me, a family reconstructed from the broken pieces and a future yet to be created. And just how wrong I was to be this happy and excited.. Just a month in as my first day of school started, just to be shattered completely and unknowningly while entering hell for rest of my life. Hell, not because it's school, not because I was a kid. But because of everything that happened afterwards.
The first day of entering a school in which I was so excited and happy to go to. I was expecting a class of kids from other countries, being able to talk to at least some kids in English and have a teacher who also spoke English.. Even the people from the government told us that students and teachers do speak English there.. But to my surprise there was nobody who spoke English in the entire school, resulting in massive communication failure as everyone just stared at me while I didn't understand anything and others just laughed at me because of how I didn't understand what they were saying in German. I was extremely embarrassed and shy. But I knew that day, it crushed one of my dreams and a lot of hopes. Which is why it was so painful for me to start, and even more so, missing what I used to have.
When I moved in to our new flat, I didn't expect too much.. But whoever my mom was dating, I was being happy about, I thought that my mom found someone better than who my dad was. So even before meeting my mom's bf, I congratulated him on a fathers day, actually welcoming him into our not so together family while I was trying to grasp to anything I could to have something that I used to have.. But the time came when I did meet him, the time of moving in with them. I learned the hard way of the type of person he was. Already not allowing me to take anything from my home to my new home. And starting my days with sleeping on the floor there. I slowly began to understand just how horrible of a person he was.. As unknowningly he would drag me across the biggest mental hell anyone could face as a kid.
Since my school, nor my personal life was starting off as I expected it to, I was getting quite depressed, with the divorce of my family, the start of the abuse, the start of social isolation, and various school problems. I was getting worse by the week. Yet I had nobody, nobody cared. My mother's boyfriend eventually started hating that I was talking to my mom.. Becoming delusional that if he didn't hear what I told my mom then I must be talking about him. Which made him really angry and aggressive towards me. That began to slowly seperate me and my mom as he always used to get that way, meaning we would talk less and less.. The nights used to begin with him talking about me when they were in bed and when I was in bed, since it was an apartment, the walls were pretty thin, meaning I could hear them quite well.. Every word he talked about me.. Hearing every night about how bad I am as a kid, how I couldn't do that or tidy that up. Naming me in so many curse words and shaming me down in every way he could come up with. Eventually he even convinced my mom of telling me that I'm the worst son ever a couple of times. Various days, I could find my room completely trashed, my bed pushed around, clothes on the ground, window open and the room freezing as he used to mostly do it in winter. Heating was quite restricted by both of them. And since we were living in a terrible location, the apartment had mold. Over the period of time that I was living there, it was getting worse and worse, yet I was getting the entire blame for it. I remember nights of suffocating, not being able to breathe in my room because of pure mold. I began feeling weaker the longer I stayed there. But I was just a simple kid. I had no control, nor a voice that anyone could hear me through as I lived in a place where I knew nobody. A place where nobody wanted to know me. At that time I was missing my dad so much.. I was imagining and fantasizing of meeting my dad just one more time.. Despite how he abused me and disowned me. I forgave him, yet I wanted him back because I felt safer and that's what I really needed.. I felt scared every day to be with my mom's bf. I used go through so many memories I had with him, every little happy interaction I had. While in the end, hoping so badly, that I could one day, go back to my country, and tell him, how much I miss him.. How much I need him.. most of all, how much I love him despite everything that happened. But all I could do was just cry myself to sleep with the thought of it... However, the best I could do was to build a life on the internet.. Go everywhere I can and talk to anybody I can. Make any kind of friends. And that's what I did.. The only way I kept sane up till today. As I talked to thousands of people.. I took time to learn and discover mental health. At that point I realized that I was depressed, lonely (as well as socially isolated), slightly suicidal and self conscious (I was quite overweight at that time, so I used to hide my body a lot). I listened to so many people, so many other teens, how they dealt with life, how they came across and dealt with things. I was wondering if I could get any kind of help. Even though I didn't know what was I even looking for. It helped me understand more, think deeper into things and slowly discover of the mess I'm in. Slowly realize everything around me and how bad things are on another level. Sadly, the mental hell I was talking about got even worse, it really changed me ever since. My moms boyfriend came home one day with my mom late at night. Screaming at each other, while I came out of my room to ask them to not shout politely, being reasonable and telling them they can talk about it tomorrow since i had school the next day. But to my surprised jumped to attack me, slowly coming after me as I'm backing away, and pushing me right in the face, knocking me instantly unconscious. Slowly waking up confused and numb, noticing me bleeding out of my nose profusely and realizing that I landed next to the corner of a wooden table near my bed. Trying to get up as I'm dizzy and weak. Yet he's standing there and getting ready to attack me again. But I knew to myself that I had to find something to stop myself from bleeding, my fight or flight instinct kicking in as I'm realizing what happened. In luck he backed away and I managed to go to the bathroom where I could stop the bleeding and lock myself in, lay down on the ground as I'm feeling like passing out again. I was just 14 against an ex-boxer. My mom didn't bother to help me, she didn't want me to go to hospital, she didn't care if I'm okay. Despite me telling her that I need to go to the hospital as I'm barely able to stand. All she did was just allow me to go to bed and sleep it out. I was in pure shock.. Laying in my bloody bed.. I decided to text my brother, telling him how scared I am and that he just attacked me. But he didn't respond and later in years, he didn't even believe me that this happened.. So all I could do was just fall asleep.. I had no other choice despite feeling like dying. I might as well could of since my mom didn't care about my health at all. For the next week, I didn't eat a single bit. I hardly left my room. I was absolutely dead scared for my life. I tried to be as far away from him as possible for the rest of my life. This traumatized me so much for years. I developed fear of just being in public or being next to people.
Through this time, there was a big immigrant influx, due to war in some place. Meaning everyone was holding votes to kick non German people out. But out of luck the votes let us stay, but just because of the economy. At the time it didn't mean much to me.. I wasn't that in depth about such things. But I did begin to realize that I wasn't welcome here, and even more so when I changed classes.
At the time I spoke some what decent English as a kid who's not native in it. So for it I tried to learn the german language as well.. Not only that it was required for me to know it, but because I thought maybe it's the reason why I couldn't make friends. I was still very hopeful even though learning a language seemed so daunting back then. But I finally learned enough German, where I could communicate with others, I thought that maybe I have another chance of making friends, making something nice for my life after so long. But as I was moved to the German class.. I was nothing short of disappointed yet again.. People didn't have interest, they were intimidated by me. I wasn't the small build type of guy either, I was older and much bigger in body size which gained me respect as others didn't want any trouble with me, even though I wasn't the person to attack anybody nor showed any kind of aggression towards anybody ever. And so the things stayed that way till I finished school.. I made no friends, nobody wanted to do anything with me either. A life in a German class as a foreigner was sad as well.. Most teamwork type of days were me being alone. The only thing i could do was just to adapt and be like them just to gain some kind of social interaction. Which is what I did.. I tried to adapt the way they spoke, the way their personalities were. Build myself a fake mask for myself just to pretend that I'm there and they care. Yet when it came to those small things like teamwork, it did break me again and again.
Through the time of being in school, I did get a chance to go back home once more, to my home town. Where I relived all of my memories in my mind once more. Sadly, I was there just for the passing of my grandfather.. I wish I could of told him so much more, but he lost the battle against cancer so soon.. But I had the chance of contacting my dad since I was there... I was still trying to be hopeful even though I was trying not to cry most of the time while being there.. So I made the call.. .. And.. he didn't really recognize me as his son anymore.. He began cursing me out. And most of all. He said he doesn't have a son with my name.. Which is why I hung up. And unwantingly lost 2 close people. My world shattered once more. Every little thing I imagined, wanted and hoped for was yet again destroyed. I cried. a lot.
Back in the day, I used to celebrate the new years evening with my entire family.. We used to buy a bunch of fireworks, go outside like other families would and just fire away. My dad lighting the fireworks all of us enjoying it. Me and my neighbour getting together to watch the fireworks and play with the small one's afterwards.. I used to love it so much.. But the thought of just being outside all together as a family right as we enter a new year.. It means so much to me.. This year came, the 2020.. For me it wasn't the worst thing that corona came.. But at the very start of the year.. the very first hour. Was the day I broke beyond repair. The amazing time of the new year, a time where you and your family spends time together. Together, entering a new year with your loved one's.. I was there all alone, I couldn't let go of the words "I have nothing/no one". I finally crossed the line into giving up on my life.. So I entered the year crying.. Most likely gonna end it the same way.. I can only hope to survive the pain.
Slowly but surely I understood that I don't have a family anymore.. The life of being on the internet slowly died as well.. I could hardly find anybody to talk to.. People began being the same basic people with whom you couldn't make even the most simple of conversations, and the one's with whom you could. Would disappear for no known reason. The relationships between me and my mom collapsed entirely once I found out that she's scared to even talk to me despite me spending hours and days next to her when she needed someone the most. Helping her with depression and talking to her, just to get stabbed in the back like that. I understood that despite all of my efforts to create a conversation, she wont talk to me about anything, she's not interested in anything about me either. So there's simply nothing between us. Especially after what she did when the most traumatizing moment happened to me and she allowed it. I didn't mention much of my brother but, we didn't have the best relationship I suppose.. He used to be everything to me back in the day.. I loved him so much, I could never bring myself to say that to him, especially when I needed him the most. I used to look up to him as he was so smart and awesome, he was the perfect brother. I remember all the fun times I had with him... He even protected me from my dad. But with time, he began to care less and less.. Till he eventually told me something heart breaking.. "I don't care about you, but only that you exist". That whole sentence, instantly defeats everything.. No matter what I'd want to say to him.. No matter how I feel. It would all be pointless in the end.
The reason I named this, as extremes of social isolation, is because of how everything that I experienced and went through has brought me towards this: As I was going to school still.. The time of me still being alone, trying my hardest to make friends.. I took every suggestion from everybody. I tried talking to random people, literally everywhere, in the gym, on the street, in school. I tried to defeat my social anxieties just to make a friend. I even asked for my social workers in school to help me in some kind of way, I was trying to be active. I even went to live for a few months with other teens. I put myself out there, show the passion I had for things I loved to do, be charming and have a personality but not in a creepy way. Make things not awkward or weird. Not force a conversation or anything, just go with the flow. But no matter how good I'd do in a conversation. It would never work. So every time I was defeated, I would begin to isolate myself.. Days where I would walk back home and cry because nobody ever gives me even a chance. It was so painful, because I attacked myself from the inside, to push myself away from people. To stop wanting to be around people. To stop wanting a presence next to me. I went through months of such pain.. Once i recover just to give it a try again, with whatever hope I have left. Just to fail once more. Just to go through another wave of pain. Most people would just say the most basic stuff ever, even thought they never experienced such levels of social isolations and the deepest form of depression. Things like "You'll make a friend one day" or "Don't worry everything will be okay" are the words of not knowing how to help the person, not knowing their situation and not understanding them at all.. People told me those quotes years ago.. As my life deteriorated, it never got better, I never made a friend.
With social isolation, I became distant, every physical touch was uncomfortable. I didn't know how to feel with a hug even. The most basic of interactions to me was like the biggest challenge I had.
Today, I spent majority of my day crying. Going through so many memories that I miss so dearly of my life when I used to have a family. A time where i knew what real happiness meant.. A time where I felt safe. I would do anything just to spend one more day in those happy days. Writing this as I'm crying. I have nothing. No family. No friends. No dreams. No hopes. My life was destroyed to ashes. I hope I'll survive another year..
P.S: This is not a suicide's note or anything of the sort. I wanted to share my life as I have nobody else to whom I could tell this to. I do have a big background of what's going on with my suicidal tendancies, I know it's against the rules so I'm not gonna mention anything about it as I want others to not think about it but rather live on. I don't expect my life to go for that long with the way things are in my life. These are my thoughts, my feelings and non fully detailed version of my life. There's a lot more that I'd rather keep to myself.
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2020.10.31 12:46 Blood_Bleeder IDM+: Fastest Music, Video, Torrent Downloader v12.2 (Final) (Patched) (ARM7 + ARM8) (Balatan Mod)

App Name: IDM+: Fastest Music, Video, Torrent Downloader v12.2 [Final] [Patched] [ARM7 + ARM8] [Balatan Mod]
Description: IDM+ is the fastest and most advanced download manager (with Torrent download support) available on android. It's upto 500% faster than normal download. And it doesn't run background services if there's nothing to download and Smart download option is disabled which increases battery life.
Read FAQs @ http://www.apps2sd.info/idmp/faq
Tutorial @ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4VotpvLnTrg
IDM+ features:
General:
• Ad free • Download Torrent files using magnet link torrent url or a torrent file on your device • Dark and Light themes • Supported languages: Chinese(Traditional) Chinese(Simplified) Czech Español Español(Latin America) French German Greek Italiano Indonesian Japanese Korean Magyar Português Português(Brazil) Русский Polish Slovak Serbian Türkçe العربية Afrikaans • Direct Download to SD card • Supports HTTP Live Streaming websites • Hide downloaded files from everyone • Smart download option to download files when you copy downloadable links to clipboard • Option to save user name password for auto login while browsing and downloading from password protected sites • Pause and Resume feature with supported links • Pause all / Start all / Remove all options to save time • Unlimited retry support with custom delay • Download are not stopped if app is closed • Wifi only download support • Smart error handling so you don't loose any data • Download scheduler to schedule your downloads • Import download links from a text file • Export download links • Import download link from clipboard • Open/Share downloaded files • Extended Notifications with download progress (Combined as well as individual) • Supports vibration and notification sound on download completion • Supports all formats: archive files MUSIC VIDEO documents programs etc • Support multiple web browsers including: Default Android browser Chrome Firefox etc • Sort files by name size date and categorize by types and time
Advanced:
• Upto 5 simultaneous downloads • Multi part downloading - upto 32 simultaneous parts per download • Support for proxies (with or without authentication) • Speed limiter to limit speed of downloads (Global as well as individual) • Refresh expired links (Direct or using inbuilt browser) • Download password protected files • Calculate MD5 checksum
Additional:
• Built-in web browser with support for multiple tabs history and bookmarks • Incognito browsing mode • Download by automatically catching links of MUSIC/VIDEO from your favorite websites
Please note that DOWNLOADING FROM YOUTUBE IS NOT SUPPORTED due to their terms of service
Clarification for Access Permissions:
• Network Connection (Internet Access) is for downloading file • Storage (modify or delete contents on your USB storage) is for storing downloaded data • Control Vibration: create vibrating effect for necessary notification • Wake lock to stop device from going into sleep mode while downloading is in progress
Disclaimer: Downloading and viewing of any file protected by copyright is prohibited and regulated by the laws of the country where you live. We assume no responsibility for any misuse of our App.
If you like the app please rate 5 star :)
Google Play: Link
Mod Info: Unlocked full version • No LP or Google Play Modded needed • Disabled / Removed unwanted Permissions + Receivers and Services • Analytics / Crashlytics disabled.
This app has no advertisements
ReleaseAPK
Changelog: Fixed: Media capture issues • Fixed: Other bug fixes.
VirusTotal: ARM7 ARM8
Download: ARM7 ARM8
Fyi: Install IDM+ 12.2 [Patched] over top 12.1 [Patched].
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